yes you are....may be life just testing your love...don't loose patience until your hurt won't accept this thing....let the love come to you not you go to love :) good luck

well my initial reaction was that he should have stopped by
as soon as he got the message you were in the hospital

i would have

he could always do homework in the hospital. i have.

on the other hand, it sounds to me like you are using this illness
as some yardstick to measure "how much my bf loves me"

and that is not a good thing to do and is a sign of emotional
distress at a time when you are having a lot of physical pain
from your back and anxiety about how and when your back will improve.

i agree with what ese and others have been saying that
hopefully things will look better soon for you, that you will
find support from other friends and family as well as your bf
and that the fact that he was not immediately available when
you became ill will not permanently damage your friendship.



feel better soon!!

It's natural to want to be comforted when you have needs. And the reaction from not being comforted could end up being that you don't allow others to comfort you in the future. This is a bad pattern.

But this was about your feelings and you placed responsibility on your boyfriend. Being a young man he is clueless on how an event that didn't start with him ended up exposing him to be a failure.

Slow down. Be careful. Take responsibility for your feelings. Don't make others responsible for your feelings. The feelings you make him responsible for are when he treats you poorly or mean not when fails to treat you special.

This takes time and experience to understand. But don't be a fool. It takes intentional work to grow up emotionally. If your not actively seeking to be wise with your emotions, you could be an emotional adulesent your whole life.

Your boyfriend could have done much more. He fell short. And he will again. Give him room to fail. Here's a challenge. Respect him even when he is not respectable. Because he will fall short. If he learns you will respect him even when he falls short it's a good chance his trust and love In you will grow too

Sorry about your pain. Pain sucks. Lots of us her have endoured mass pain too. If it can be any comfort, we all send our best wishes to you to recover fast. We are with you inspirit even though we are not with you in person. Your endourance is being tested. Keep enduring young one.