OK OK you win, IL bow. lol

Now that I'm thinking about this. I can't count how many time I've got a
message from a woman that shows off her body, most likely thinking this
guy looks like he partys a lot. But when I start to talk with them after
some time. The blond kicks in and if I could see there face. It might
look like that they are saying. What! lol

I just don't know :(

:) Hey I don't know either but still no reason to give up.



By the way Shadow no blond here mine was all from a bottle which my kids
have convinced me to go back closer to my true color lmao so now it is
brown. Humm.

Ohhh, and since I'm past the point of getting puked on I will be brave
and say it now lmao.


YOUR A GREAT GUY!


THERE HUMM GUESS I WAS SAFE NOTHING CAME MY WAY AFTER SAYING THAT. LOL


Awww, and did I happen to see a smile lmao ya have a great smile so just
keep on dreaming for that special one is out there and they will show up
like a breath of fresh air when you least expect them. That's my story
and I'm sticking to it.

As I have said many times in here keep on dreaming for when we quit
dreaming we quit living!


Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take. But.... by the
moments that take our breath away!!!

Jus my lil opinion here..why give up. no one should stop looking..hell
no its not easy anything worth having isn't easy..if we all gave up then
the world would be full of cold lonely empty people..you just gotta keep
plugging away and keep the faith..it will happen...sometime

Just like you, many women have gone through many of the same trials and
tribulations in life...I've been single 4 yrs..I don't necessarily like
being single, but that's just how it's worked out..I have met quite a
few guys since being single and let me tell ya, they are the reason I'm
still single...good guys are just as hard to find as a good woman..I've
been through my fair share in relationships as well...but no matter
what, you have to keep the faith that all will work out eventually...you
can't let a few bad apples spoil the whole bushel...

it almost seems like the choice is die now (give up) or keep trying and
be killed a little at a time. What's really got me bugged is that it's
been a couple of months and this last one I can't seem to let go. It's
always hurt but this time it seems even worse.

millsdd, I would love to be able to say I have not been there, but I
have. To the point I wanted to just give up and die for I felt I had
already died inside and there was nothing left. But... if it was not for
my kids I believed I would have gave into that hurt and ended it all.
But... I could not stand the thought of hurting the ones that I loved
the most and that is my kids for they have always been there for me each
and every time. They are my heart! And ya maybe I have tried to make
light of it all here for you but truth is there are still some in the
past that still brings a tear to my face when I think about them and
wonder why? And reading your words here have also brought those tears
once more for I still remember the hurt that they left but I don't blame
the next one for others hurt and I do try to remember not to give up on
love. After 15 yrs and not being able to find that love well it's hard
to keep going on but I still believe there is one out there for just me.
And if its a dream I must keep alive or give up and I'm not willing to
give up so the choice is only to KEEP THE DREAM ALIVE.



I do feel for you and if you ever need a friend hey I'm here e-mail me
and we can talk one on one say what every comes to your mind I don't
judge for what one thinks! And I'm not gonna sugar coat it for you
either only what I believe which is not always the right way. But I'm
not perfect that is what life is all about everyone is unquie in there
on way.

OK MILLS U READY TO SIT DOWN AND LISTEN?? OK LETS TALK!
FIrst of all, your a very nice looking gentleman, and IF U READ THAT
I SAID GENTLEMAN.....now....secondly, your open and honest, which is
good, most men are lacking in that category and so are women. Yes its
hard to find the right woman, butttt in this life, there is and do mean
this.....there is someone out there for EVERYONE.....we just have to
have FAITH!!! Dont frown at me ok?? I was raised in a sence that, untill
something happened, most things were not told to me, I had to be patient
and wait........but.....in waiting, my father died when i was 12 and my
mother died when i was 16. SO!!! I had to raise myself and deal with
issues i had never knew exsisted. It was hard, but I accomplished lots
of things, met alot of people and grew in street knowledge as well as
common sence.....yes i met men who were badd butts.......and i had my
share of ups and downs with them, buttttttttttttt i didnt let that get
the best of me. I strived to find someone just a tad bit better, and one
of whom if my grandmother were alive to this day WOULD BE SMILING and
saying OK NOW THATS THE ONE FOR YOU.....and u no what?? I have not found
him yet..why?? because most of the men I meet in there 50s , who have
been divorsed or widowed, sing me a song of pity, selishness, conciet or
just plain down right hard hearted I WANT TO BE BABIED
routines.........and u no what IM NOT BITING!!! Men like you are a
rarety.......sure we know ur out there but good god ur hard to find, and
most men who have been treated baddly arennt or dont become honest up
front with women, they tend to just play head games or just use most of
us GOOD WOMEN for there own selfish indulgance (SEXUAL GAMES) and that
in itself isnt what relationships should be based on........you have to
be BEST FREINDS FIRST......you have LEARN EACH OTHER......You have to
want to give and then give back and the same with the woman. BOTHE
GIVING.....you gotta be able to laugh cry stomp ur feet yell hugg dance
kiss pinch butts go places together and be comfortable in doing all that
or its just not gonna work.........if u get mad enough to want to hit
then buy some $10 dishes( wally world special,..giggling) go up in the
hills and chunck them at the treees.......(make sure u clean up the mess
afterwards) smiling... and or go and just YELL OUT LOAD all by
urself....it works wonders.......sometimes a good cry works......i know
it does for me......clears the mind and helps the heart grow
stronger.........but in general.......YOU WILL FIND A LADY WHO WILL
APPRECIATE YOU....BELEIVE ME U WILL........
Those bad boyz dont last long in fact they get the worst reps by being
BADD and u no what??? THEY MAKE THEEEE WORST LOVERS....
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..........dont give up........just hang in
there........how would u like to have just worked and come home, taken
care of your children and did what needed to be done for over 14 yrs??
and never never and i do mean never even think about another person in
ur life?? WELL???
wel guess what?? that was me........I had given up......but u no what??
I have peace within myself..........I have let the man upstairs deal out
my life and I just accept what he gives me openly and honestly.......oh
sure i cry at times. but u no...i do date.. not often but i
do........and when i find that the man is not what im interested
in......I just politely say...i am sorry but i think its best we just
dont see one another, your just not for me, i am sorry.........and if he
chosess to call me names. well then i was right and the whispering in my
ear from the man upstairs was RIGHT...........
Just dont be so quick to jump into a relationship....be somewhat
picky.........enjoy life, yet dont just look at each woman as THE RIGHT
ONE.......take ur time.....date....stop and listen.....hear what they
say ..watch them move....smile...and yet be
cautious...........then........things will happen to a degree better
then u ever imagined..............okay??

but do me a favor will you??? please??
look for guideance from the man upstairs....in prayer ok.?
U would be surprised at whats in store for you....i know i did and he
is amazing if u just have FAITH!!!....

and smile more.....u have a great smile .......smile...

one big hugggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!


Dakotas55

thanks Dakota
I'm not there yet, still in "give up" mode and don't know how long it'll
last or if it will ever end but I'm dealing with the pain the best I
know how.

Millsdd....Please, don't give up. You look and seem like such a nice
guy with a GREAT attitude!! Any girl should keep someone like you, you
know why? Because I'm the same way!! This girl I was with was engaged
and she left him because he was a drunk and abusive. She went to
therapy and was down to 92lbs. She was a WRECK!! Then, she met me!!
This is what her mother told me. In 3 weeks, she was smiling more, she
was eating more and gaining a little bit of weight back. Her mom said
when I wasn't there I would be ALL she talked about and how happy I made
her. Then.....the ex starts back into the picture. He was starting to
call her and saying how he loves her so much and would do anything for
her and wants her back. He told her that he admitted himself in rehab
and was going to quit drinking!! Well, this guy KNEW how to mind fuck
her....he was a slick mother fucker!! She was getting confussed and
depressed again and very upset. I told her to just let him go because
look what he did to you!! Therapy, 92lbs, you're a WRECK but, you're
getting better? Yet, she was still confused. She said she was SO in
love with me but, still had feelings for him because he came back into
the picture. Sometimes it doesn't matter what girl you are with
millsdd. There will ALWAYS try to be a "COCK BLOCK"!! If a guy sees a
girl and KNOWS she is with someone else....he won't give a fuck and try
to impress her, show off and then take her. BUT, you know what? It
takes TWO millsdd!!! TWO!! If she LOVES you enough and another guy
comes along and tries to, like I said, "COCK BLOCK" you and steal her,
if she truly loves you, she will tell him to get lost, fuck off, kick
him in the jimmy....whatever. She'll tell him to back off. You're just
with the WRONG girls millsdd!! Trust me I KNOW from experience. I've
been with NOTHING but the wrong girls. Don't worry man, seriously!!
You'll be okay!! I got your back millsdd!!!!