Don't do drugs.

Least of all meth.

Meth is extremely addictive and within a few months you will look and feel like hell.

Just don't do it.

Don't be stupid.

I totally agree..

It also makes you extremely horny.

i don't need meth for that

I hear ya brother!!

Serious note, long term effects include high blood pressure, live, kidney and lung damage, malnutrition, severe tooth decay, disorientation, exhaustion, psychosis, depression, epilepsy, and early onset alzheimer's.....yikes!!!!

seriously, what do drug abusers see in those drugs?

their wildest dreams...

without a thought of worldly problems...

till the spin down... with its crash into the bubble of reality...

Which for most means they need a 'bump'

Cause they don't LIKE reality.

diet pills gone wild

I knew a guy who claimed he mowed his yard & cleaned his garage in like a half hour on it

but he didn't say nothin about sumpin in the oven

not too many do adventure

those who can make their own reality have the best shot IMO

They, least the ones I have talk to, say it is a credibility gap. People tell them don't do it they are bad for you but they are the same ones popping pills and getting drunk at lunch. T

They figure hey it looks like fun so why not. They see others seemingly getting away with it so they think why not me. By the time the side effects start kicking in it is too late. Many Meth heads I have talked to tell me they felt like they were hooked the very first time. Sadly the euphoria and feel good I can take on the world feeling is a first for many.

For some it is just self hatred and hatred of parents. The thought is if the parents can't make them happy they will destroy what makes the parent happy. They don't care if they are cutting off their nose to spite their face it is just a power show down.

Since many figure they are going to end up a has-been after high school they are going to go out partying. Sadly with the economy things do look pretty bleak.

..if people were to stop and read the ingredients for meth thsy may think twice before they ever got involved with it..while others just wouldn't care..Educate..but i have seen the effects of meth on people ..and it's not pretty at all..

<<-- to much meth...

Dang, thought you was talking about math.


Seriously, even hippies had posters that said "Meth kills."

But I sell meth to the community! What am I gonna do if people stop using it? I also use it to control my ho's!

Wow!

I knew this would eventually come up again.

This post is long, but please read it all, its worth the reading.



One of my very first, posts here, at Mingle, was called, "NO MORE METH MOUTH". I used meth for a VERY long time.

I wanted to quit, and of course all of my friends were meth users, so they weren't gonna be of any help for that, and the only friends I had were meth users. I had no family, no boyfriend, so I got a computer, and decided to give it a try. I was brand new with computers, and got a cheap one at a yard sale, but thats all I needed. It got me online. I was also in a rock band, and there is alot of drug use, in the world of musicians, unfortunately.

I found Mingle, and I joined. I posted my first topic, "HEY IS ANYBODY OUT THERE"...the long time Minglers will remember this, , and got answers like, "No", and funny stuff like that. My next post was, "WHO WANTS TO ROCK WITH ME?" , AND AGAIN, got a bunch of replies. So I knew then, that people were reading the Forums here at Mingle. My next, and most important post, was "NO MORE METH MOUTH", and in it, I told pretty much the entire internet world, and everyone on Mingle, that I had been addicted to Meth, for a long time, and had no support groups, programs I could attend,(I had no car), I was not religious at the time, and didnt believe in God, all of my family had passed, except for one sister, that I didnt keep in touch with. I had no one, except for my dog, and wanted badly to quit. I told them that as of that post, I wasent gonna ever use again. And that I quit!

It was shocking The thread went for pages, and pages, of total strangers, here at Mingle, saying "Go for it", "You go girl", "You can do it", "We're right here, if you want someone, to talk to"...ect.

Im honestly crying, typing this, its so deep, and true, and touching.

I continued to stay clean, and started receiving an alarming amount of emails , from the Mingle people, wanting to know my status with meth. So instead of trying to individually, answer all the emails, I started to post on Mingle, every 2 weeks that I stayed clean, letting everyone know my progress. Again, every post I made, went for pages, and pages, of Minglers reaching out to me, cheering me on, and giving me one more good reason to stay clean. I honestly felt like, if I used again, I would be letting down all the people that reached out to me, and had faith in me. So Mingle became my support group, my N.A., my friends by my side helping me through it, and my new family.

Meth robbed me, of alot of things. Like my mother, and fathers,funerals, contact with my only surviving family member,(my sister), having REAL friends that didnt use dope, and were not just around if I a had dope, and many years of my life, that I can never get back.

I was one of the lucky ones. I smoked it, and never injected it, so I fortunately didnt get "tore up from the floor up", like most people. Thank God I have strong teeth, and managed to only lose 2, and now im going through dental hell, fixing some damage that was done, all to my back teeth, which is the only reason, ive always had a nice looking smile, in all my pics.

After 6 months of being clean, I had a nervous breakdown, from the blow, that my reality after Meth, gives you, and started to see a shrink, and got on lots of meds, for panic attacks, ect...but I still stayed clean.

After 7 months of being clean, I was diagnoised with breast cancer. I would never had even known it, but I thought since I was clean, I would get a check-up, just to see, if I had done any damage to my body. I felt fine physically, and knew it would all come out good, But it didnt, I got a mammogram, and by the time they found it, I was at advanced Stage 3(it only goes to 4)of "Her 2"(a VERY aggressive, and fast moving cancer). It had created a huge tumor, in my right breast, and spread through all the lymph nodes, on my right side. I had to have a mastectomy, on my right breast, and all of the lymph nodes on my right side, removed.

They told me they werent gonna sugar coat it, and I had about a 50/50 chance of survival, with a year of chemo, and 6 weeks of daily radiation. My reply to that was,"Ill die when im damn good and ready, and im not ready, so lets fight this biotch! Ive never lost a fight, and I dont intend, to start now!".

I have been in remission, for 2 years now, and my chances of recurrence, are very high. But im a fighter, and now ive found God, and have him, by my side, so theres no way, I will suffer from cancer, again.I have complete faith in this, and its not negotiable!

I have been clean, since my start date here...7/06/08. And have made many friends here, that love me for me, and not my dope, and extended their love, to a drug addict, they didnt even know, and helped her to quit.

And even the new people here, read my profile, which describes in depth, my struggles with Meth, and Cancer. And they still accept me, with my ugly past. THe bible says in Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!".

And obviously the Minglers agree, and accept me as a new creation.

For that I am so blessed.

I have also rekindled my relationship, with my sister, and we are always in touch now. Its wonderful.

I owe Mingle, and my family here, my life. Who knows if I would of stayed clean, without all the support I got here? I know it gave me a HUGE reason, to prove that I could do it, kind of a challenge, and im always up for a challenge, ya know?

I am very open, about my drug abuse, because as it says on my profile, "If even just one person, reads my story about my drug abuse with meth, and thinks ,"Hey, if she can do it, I can do it", than its worth hanging up my dirty laundry for everyone to see.

Besides, im not ashamed of who I was, im amazed at who i've become, and how a group of total strangers, helped me to get there...The Minglers.

If your reading this, and your doing dope, try to learn something from this wayyyyyyyyyy too long, , post. I wasted over 20 years of my life, doing meth, cause it felt so good. I know it feels good, but you know what, this feels better?

Its alot better, not having something, rule my life, spend all my money, tell me when im up, or when im down, when im awake, or when im asleep, when I feel good, when I feel like sheet, pick and choose my friends, eliminate the chance of having real friends, and not dope friends, who are only around when your holding,

and you know this is true, because when you quit, all of your so called homies, best friends, sisters, brothers, disappear.

When I was using, I couldnt even get out of bed, without a hit off that glass pipe, and if I couldnt get dope that day, I just slept all day. I was self employed, so I could do that.

Now "IM" in charge of my schedule, my money, and my friends, my moods, MY LIFE. I can get up without HAVING to have something. And even if you can get up, without dope, how many days do you last? Not many, ive been there.

Or maybe your someone who stays up for days at a time, without sleeping, till you start seeing chit...."meth monsters", is what we called em, and some people like it. Maybe you dont eat alot, and think its cool, because you dont have to trip on gaining weight, especially if your a chick. I fortunately did sleep everynight, and ate, smoking it insted of snorting, or injecting it, allowed me that.

Dont do what I did!

Dont lose so many years, that you can never get back, because even though I finally did get clean at age 45 it still hurts me deep down inside, that I lost all that time, and my parents funerals, and what I might have become, if I had not ever used dope.

How much more beautiful, I might be, inside and out, and now all I can do is, take the wreckage, of whats left of my life, and start to build a new one. Not to mention all the meds, I have to take now, just to function, and the deep depression, I have to fight everyday.

Im a fighter, I refuse to fail, so im fighting to go on, trying to not look back, and still enjoy, whats left of my life...but honestly, I know, my best years, were wasted doing dope.

And no, im not a bible thumper now, or judge people because "I" got clean, im still a musician, (probably would have, more than one C.D., to show for all of my years, of being a musician, writing music, being in bands, and performing live, had I not made dope, my number one priority). I still listen to, love, perform, and write, heavy metal music, rock out, and bang my head, everyday! Im not a square, now, or uncool. Im still the same rocker chick, who grew up in L.A., performing live, and writing music, just without the dope.

Heres a fact alot of people dont know.

From the age that you start doing meth, (I was in my teens), you stop mentally aging, and when you quit, you age only a few years, for every year, you are clean. This is a fact!

Thats why, I still act like, a kid! Inside my brain, alot of me never matured. Fortunately I was a smart, straight A, student, and a smart kid, or I would be one dumb broad, now.

I definitely dont act, like a 49 year old woman. Im still doing kid stuff, skateboarding, amusement parks, miniature golf, those little race carts, the big slides, waterparks, ect........

You arent gonna see me at a museum, or someones showing of their paintings, or watching the History Channel(I dont watch T.V., at all anymore) because all that stuff is boring to me.

I want adventure, and fun, like being on the back of a Harley going 100 miles an hour, or jumping out of a plane, or hang gliding...im sure, you get the picture here.Im still a kid, although im a smart, and well spoken kid, but its actually, really hard, to get me to be serious, for very long, about anything.

Those who know me well, know this all too well.

Let me be your example, of what not to be....someone who just wasted,, so many years of my life,and really wishes, they could get a "do over", but its too late for me, but its not to late, for you.

Dont wake up one day, and realize, that half of your life is gone, and you dont really have sheet, to show for it. My music is all I have of my past, and even all of that is gone, except for my live performances.

Someone broke into my storage shed, and stole everything I owned. All my pictures, most of my poetry, (I was barely able, to scrap enough of it that was still somewhat in my mind, to get my book of poetry, published. Most of it, is on my profile, but I had hundreds, of poems, songs, stories, gone!My guitars gone, my amps gone, all of my P.A. System gone, all of my collections of things gone!

And the really sad part is, I know whoever did it, just threw all of my personal stuff, in a dumpster somewhere, and sold, or pawned, or traded, the valuable things that I had, for dope.

I LOST EVERYTHING I OWNED, EXCEPT FOR THE CLOTHES ON MY BACK. And eventually, even if you dont get robbed, like me, YOU WILL lose, all of your possessions, for dope. It happens to all drug addicts, eventually, not to mention, all the irreplaceable time.

Its funny, almost the whole time I used meth, I told all my meth friends, that I could quit, whenever I wanted to, I just didnt want to, cause I liked it. And deep down inside, I knew, that the real world, wasent easy, or pretty. So I continued to use, and stay in my fantasy world, where I felt, good, and happy, with no worries, and it was pretty.

I have chosen, to accept, what I cant change, be happy that I didnt die, and I did eventually quit, and instead of being depressed, about what ive lost forever, I choose to laugh, as much as I can, and just have fun, with whats left, of my life.Its the best I can do, now!

And, at the same time, I will hopefully, become something, in this life I have left. I guess for now, im an inspiration, or an example, of what "you DONT want TO DO OR BE", and an inspiration of "what you CAN overcome, IF YOU REALLY WANT TO".

At least thats something.

I quit smoking cigarettes this year too. It was hard, but not as hard as having cancer.

Like I said, "Ill die, when im damn good and ready, and im not ready", so im not going to do anything else, to harm my body, ever again, and hopefully, I will still have some good years ahead of me.

Im not preaching, im begging you, to reach out, get help, and quit, for YOURSELF, for YOUR LIFE, for YOUR FAMILY, for A CHALLENGE, or even, just to SHOW ME, THAT YOU CAN, AND IM NOT "ALL THAT", FOR DOING IT!

You can email me here, or we can exchange phone numbers, and talk, whatever makes you comfortable. You can make up your name, if you wanna remain anonymous, I dont care. But if anyone wants any advice, or just to talk, about drug addiction, or wants to quit,

IM your girl!

Im right here, and im not going anywhere soon.

Love to my Mingle family, and to anyone who needs it, ive got tons to give!

Contact me, please.

Become a new person, starting today!

You will love what you become!