I'm SORRY, BUT THIS IS QUITE LONG BUT
MY Life: MAYBE U CUD HELP.
this is a serious matter for me and I
figure world wide view cud help esp
from the christian minded heart.
I Had a broken relationship weeks back
and been trying to pull it together. I'm
one who believes to be useful in ministry
alongside whoeva i marry not necessarily
in d same capabilities but needs a good
testimony 2b an inspiration 2d
generation dat gets 2luk up 2mine. I
stopped havin sex in any relationship of
mine for 3yrs now 2d glory of God and as
always tried 2put dat deal straight wen i
start off a relationship, but i break up wt
em 4 varyin rsns; either nt too passionate
abt God, no vision, sex driven, liar etc & d
las bcos he's catholic (tld me he wud
change wen we started out & nw 2start
marriage plans, he tells me he cant but i
hav to).. & we washed down d drain.
I got tired.. See, i'l be 31, talented & all
but single. Nobody including myself cud
belif i wud b, so i prayed to God while i
further wrap myself into bein busy for
Him. I prayed for a man 4rm my tribe ds
time & one i who wont hav 2spend al tim
wantin 2build confidence 2commit 2me &
all cos i dnt hav dat tim 2spare anymor.
Didnt kno Hw 2get such a guy knowin it
sounds unfair &unreal but am a gud girl &
if i Lov him, den he's safe witme.
From outer space blinks out an ex friend
of mine 4rm 7yrs ago. He's a sea guy (big
boy now) & though he calls thru d yrs.. I
neva gav him Anoda thot. We broke off
den cos i was obsessed (den) abt gettin
married & he wasnt ready (struggling
den). So, we thinned out. He came lookin
4me in d new state i live in abt 2wks ago
& until den, i neva knew i stil had
feelings for him wit his even stronger.
He's 34 nw neva married too & wants us
too. He is rather glad (@ my misfortune)
of nt bein married yet & says he had lik
2do Wat i had always wanted now - get
married as soonest as i am comfortable
wit (4rm 4mths time).. Well, lik i
dreamed.. He rili is my type cept I knew
him 2b d type always crazy abt his girl..
Al focus on her &all.. Kisses, sex.. Al kinds
of physical contacts is his love language.
Then, we neva had sex cos i lived wit my
mum & he was squattin wit a Frd. Today,
i lived alone in a far away city & he alone
in Anoda city wit gud thins of life lik
buildin his hous,. Car, financial plan, plays
sax & does inspirationals in church
blabla.. BUT.. He is he & ds time.. Sex is
written all ova him. He definately cant
wait til married esp witme plus cos he's
too excited &warped wit d idea dat we
cud get bac 2geda. I managed him off me
d few dys he spent witme but I am not
sure of when i visit him as he's been
bothering me to. My mum likes him
&wans him witme.. My Pst's wife liked
him wen she met him (practically
sneaked his no off my fone 4 her backup
she says), my g/f wans me 2sign d lines..
My mentor tinks its significant but i cant
talk 2any of dem abt d sex prospect part..
I even tried a few ways but no one is
'hearin my undertone). I wish 2God dat
He cud b mine but how do i handle d sex
part as i had always hope 2marry my hbd
witout sex til afta d weddin & he's said ..
Witme, he cant do dat.. He doesn't wan 2.
I actually act in control than i am 2him. I
cud dare him 2 back off if he wont wait
but btw u & I, he's d best i got eva & in 30
yrs i havnt gotten any one beta.. Dnt
even want 2run d circle again Sinc God
brought him back my way- all set dis
time.
Pls helpme. Till i end up with a solution
which i will also share here, you shud kno
dat i wil b reading everyone's comment
& considering them prayerfully.
Wish u d best too. Thx 4 dtime