As I sit here curled up watching the rain fall, I am reflecting on my (lack of) love life. Wondering why I I have loved someone who does not love me back. Friends don't let friends do stupid things - which is why I told him the women in his life were probably NOT the wisest decision he could make. I mean, anyone who would wait until his birthday to call him in Afghanistan to tell him that she had spent all of his money & slept with his best friend is not necessarily spouse material. As you can imagine, my opinion was not highly received. From cleaning his house, grocery shopping & doing his laundry because he was so depressed he could not get out of bed to driving 750 miles cross country 10 years later to be there for him when he said he needed me, I have done it. Asking for nothing in return than to just see my friend happy again, but the only thing that it managed to accomplish was more than I ever expected: physical & mental pain.

Will I ever learn to just let go? To walk away and not look back? I hope so. I believe that there is someone out there for everyone and obviously this is not my someone. Now only if my head would tell that to my heart.

Matters of the heart are often delicate and do not simply go away in a a very short period of time. Sometimes we must embrace the feeling and allow time to take its course. Unlike television sitcoms, our emotional issues do not get resolved in half an hour or an hour.

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Couldn't have worded that better.

The following will shock you cause comes from Goof. Haha!

There is one thing that all of us....male and female....no matter the color of our skin....there is one thing that can afflict (and does) afflict all of us. We are all Human. Fallable, logical, sensible, addictable, and etc. We can 80 percent of the time make the right choices in life. But in those times we do things that we wonder "should we" things that often times puts us in situations like this.

I know some people can be cold. They can learn to not care. And to be honest, learning to say "no" at times is a great thing. There are those times when we meet someone. We see so much in them. We want them to become better. We see it even when they themselves don't see it. Why? Because we care about them. And because we love them, or we love the idea of who they can become.

It's easy to sit on the fence and watch one person love another, even when the love is not reciprocated. Yeah, I can sit here and tell you how wrong you are. I can tell you how this will all end badly for you. But the thing of it is, even when you know it isn't gonna turn out like you wish it too. Even when your friends are telling you this and you know it is true. Even when you know all these things......you still stay. You try. You keep trying. And trying. And trying.

Until....the day comes...when you wake up. And you see what you've known to be true all along. That no matter how you feel. No matter how much love you have for him...and have given him....reality hits ya. You feel hurt. You feel like you wasted time. And you can't believe you stayed this long. Oh...this is such a comman story...one that the majority of us (if not every single one of us) has experienced once in our own lives.

And it is in these times I will give you two words to remember...Nobody's Perfect! Realize the mistake and move along. Is it easy? Hell no it isn't. But guess what? Once you get the ball rolling, you'll be amazed at how liberating it is. And once you are gone, he will suddenly realize what he had....and now he has lost it.

People always hate that they waste time on this. Or waste time on that. How about trying something different? Forget about the time that is gone. Make a new, better life with the time you have. Maybe I am wrong. I dunno. All I know is that if you don't enjoy who you are and what you are doing, then you are not being true to yourself. And that is the bottom line peeps. Goof out!