Words of wisdom. I do listen to nice relaxing tunes when I am coming and going to work and I am cycling as I do it so that does help. You are right though that I need to spend more time taking care of myself. Just hard to turn my back on people that need me but after feeling so ill, I will have to start saying no. Thanks for your input.

I have often been, and continue to be, a leaning post for people as well. I think it is just the way I was raised, just can't seem to say no. Recently though I have started to become a lot more selective with who I say yes to. There are a lot of "friends" out there that will always be there leaning on you. I realized the best policy is to help the people that are there for me. Life is a lot less stressful with a few true friends than with a lot of "friends". I have wasted to much of my life trying to help out people who either won't help themselves, or aho get back on there feet and disappear until they need something again.

I don't normally know when I've reached my breaking point. There are times I think I can't handle one more thing, then one more thing happens and I believe the universe is playing a cosmic joke on me. But like you, when it happens, I stop eating, can't sleep, feel like I'm sleep walking through life. The good news is once it's over you're breaking point teaches you something so you can handle it better next time. Listen to your body and be kind to yourself.

What you say makes sense. The people I have said no to have disowned me but that is alright with me. Like you I feel I have wasted my life trying to help out others. I just can't do it anymore. Fact is the people that I have been there for haven't been there for me. It is certainly draining.

Don't give up on everyone, there are some great people out there. I haven't given up, or I wouldn't be on here. I am just a lot more selective than I use to be. I get a great feeling, helping others, and doing so has brought me closer to some of my closest and dearest friends.