Well, if you think that is the problem; then lose the weight. I lost 40 pounds myself. Fact is most of us are alone on the holidays and weight has nothing to do with it. Rather than feeling sorry for yourself; go out and volunteer at one the drop in centres and see for yourself just how well off you are. While you complain about being fat; think of those starving out there. Sorry if I sound nasty, but there are more things in life way worse than being overweight. Try losing your job and almost losing everything you own. I went through that a short while ago. Count your blessings.