damn it.....i say this because im hurt and very frustrated at the same time. my second go around with a girl i have known since high school, this story could go on for days so gonna get with it.. the first time we got together it was very soon in the relationship that she wanted to know if i would consider marriage down the road i had just been through a divorce and this was not on my to do list anytime soon but didnt really mind the question but it was kind of early we had only been dating for a little while,then came the love word, im not scared of that either but thought it was early then came am i talking to other girls,asked me to drop all my friends that were girls,then i dont pay enough attention to her, and on and on and on i new it was a insecurity thing and tried to convince her i really cared about her and her only but it didnt help and became sort of frustrating the more i would here it,and then she would get upset because i would get defensive. the last thing that she ended up doing was going through my e-mail without my permission and found out i was on a dating site i did all i could to convince her i handnt joind this site (fling) sent to my e-mail because i look at porn and that just happens i guess. anyway.. got dumped!!! it just sucks i cared about her and really had some good times and miss her alot. the frustration comes from the fact that i did care very much for her but didnt like the relationship to be forced and it felt that way.. and the insecurties were wearing me out...i couldnt tell her i loved her because it was just so hard to!!! alot of thinds were left out of this story just to keep it short as possible but thats kind of it to keep it short. it sucks alot!!!!