Well then as said, that makes me a loser too! But really, I spent my days running and "going out", and what I have found now in life is that if I can be comfortable "in my own skin", if you will. I have overcome much, and then will have much more to give another. Rather then just running from myself and Needing someone else to feel ok.
So this past 3 years, I spent many Friday evenings alone, and I better for it. So when I do decide to reach out and spend them with someone, it will not be to just fill my emptiness, but that I will really want to be with them for who they are and to share life.
In other words, Not just trying to fill a void that nothing can fill.
So being alone is often a good time to be ok with self, is what I am saying.
I used to just run and try to avoid the most challenging part of life. To be alone and know I am in good company..
Sorry for my 2nd and long winded post. I am brand new here and Dont know the norms.