I am tired of trying and to tired to care...
I am tired of living, but to tired to die...
The sun is shining, but the clouds never leave..
The darkness is a warm welcome to me...

There is a war raging over seas and right here in my heart...
The tears you told me to let go and cry
use to flow freely are now frozen...
So many unspoken words run through me...

The hurt runs deep, so deep...
The wounds will heal, but the scars are all there for those to see..
The words of love might slip my tongue,
but they are no longer from the heart...

Words spoken about love do not reach me, I am cold....
There is no going forward, no going back...
Today turns into tomorrow and tomorrows turn into yesterdays...

Yesterdays pass and then lead to one week and then two...
And then one by one the months slip with nothing changing,
but the time....

The pain inside stays...Nothing new...
The hurt is what now carries me from day to day...
If it were not for the pain I would feel nothing at all...

The apology now would only be heard on deaf ears...
The time that passes only fills the rage...
Once you leave your gone I am done that's that....

Yet I find myself waiting...waiting....waiting for?
Time heals all wounds they say, but who has time to wait?
Is this my fate?
Will the pain ever stop?

Where will I go from here?
I am not afraid to die...
I am more afraid to live without you...

I was fine before you,at least I told myself I was...I believed in me...
You were like the drug my soul needed...
Maybe I became to addicted, Maybe we were not at all....
It was to good to be true...I called it... I knew it... I told you...

I laid in the bed wasting time away dreaming of
something that was never going to be...
"That is what it was", it was a "bad" good dream...
But the promises seemed so real...I wanted it to be so bad...

Then faith and hope became apart of it...
What right did you have to make me believe...
What right did you have to leave me after you filled
my heart with your love...

Another heartache wont kill me, that is not my luck...
So I await the silent one, the one I have been fighting...
The one you conned me into believing I could beat...
I am done, I surrender,I no longer will deny what is meant to be.

There is no more fight left in me, Its over, its the beginning of the end...
Go ahead and laugh some more at my expense..
I know you will and who am I to deny you of this..
I deserve it for the fool I have been...

No one can tell me that love is free..
Love cost me everything...



Sasha Lynn

i know it's expensive.the price of hookers went up another $20

Touching..this part made me reflect:

"Yet I find myself waiting...waiting....waiting for?
Time heals all wounds they say, but who has time to wait?"

-- ' good thing comes to those who wait, but not to those who wait too late '

Roko

it actually went down, perhaps your an easy mark

roko