Blocking you from my memory seems like the easiest thing to do, however its not. I cling to whatever we have left because I dont want it to leave. Deep down I know I'll never be the one you hold at night, the one you wake up beside. I'll never be the movies of your child or the love of your life. I'm just the moment of pleasure, the naughty thought that crosses your mind from time to time. I will never meet your mom or dad or enjoy a night out with our friends. You will never ask me to that movie or see if I wanna grab a bite to eat. I'm not that girl you want and desire, but you are the man i love and need. My heart is torn.

I love that! So heartfelt, great write!