Her time torturously blending one day to the next,
sitting alone in a cold room decorated in depression,
she inhales the ever encroaching,
sickeningly sweet scent of death,
bypassing the warm Christmas cheer hanging in her closet,
clinging instead to the comforts of
the ancient faded bathrobe she once wore
temptingly accessorized with a
youthfully sweet, sassy sensuality

She’s lost herself now,
unable to read her own mental memoirs,
finding them unbearably painful to view
this life filled with shame and regret

So she’s recreated her story in naughty,
used and yellowed pages she’s stained
with the remnants of forbidden sins she’s digested
in the wee hours of a morning heavy …
… with exhaustion

Night brings more than darkness;
midnight reflections hold an unrelenting terror

I look in her face and see myself there
in hopeless eyes made up in pain,
darkly, heavily,
lined with despair,
all dignity lost,
along with gray hair,
and a feminine flair
once taken for granted,
dissipated along with good health
and a lifetime of social niceties
now nothing more than dim memories

A narration sadly played out,
her saga once scripted in
vibrant idealism brutally hijacked
by a perverse ghostwriter with
a penchant for twisted endings

Helpless to help the hopeless,
I offer up the only solace I can conjure up
as I shamefully creep into her room with
sweet orange spiced tea and
handfuls of wistfully,
blissfully manufactured Harlequin love

Her muted face momentarily flashes a brief hope,
almost one of a flickering recognition as smiling,
she takes her tea cakes, her cup and her books.
shooing me out of the room where she plans
to spend the rest of her evening
in love with a virile stranger who would
fight pirates to the death in order to save her
when those who truly know and love her ... cannot ...

jan 21 2010

Truly heart wrenching and full of emotion

Waiting in anticipation for the mail to bring me your book.

Amazing...

up2us, I thank you~

2kidsmom, MzEm, thank you so very much lovely ones!

My lovely Pam, the books will be on my desk being signed within a day or two and lovingly forwarded onto you with a little gift...thank you for supporting my writing my sweet girl~xoxoxo alicia

this is such an emotionally packed piece...so, personal and heartfelt...i would applaud but i don't wish to interrupt the thought that this left me in...my heart goes out you...

very, very well done!!!