thanks but at this point, after all i've read in this forum, i guess i'll have to reconsider my want.

I wouldn't necessarily re-think on the count of us, but if that's what you really feel you need to do, just make sure to give yourself the proper time. You may feel like you need someone now, but if you wait until you're ready, you'll surely be glad you've waited.

I know I hope to find someone I can settle down with and start a family with. I know I have some things I have to work out within myself before I can get there, but once I'm there and I find that somebody, I just know it's going to be worth every second of waiting.