I believed all your lies
I embraced everything that was you
I was willing to change myself
Into what you wanted
I can hear you saying- what a dumb *****


I thought I loved you
I thought you loved me
I tricked myself into needing what you needed
Wanting what you wanted
All that was me was erased and destroyed
Hidden away in a far closet
Because I wanted you
I know what you are thinking- what a dumb *****


You told me I was pretty and special
I was all that you needed
Even though I am far away
Through no fault of my own
You made me false promises
You gave me false comfort
I believe you lied from the start
I can see you thinking- what a dumb *****


But life is a circle
What you do comes back
To you over and over and over again
I was sad when I met you and now I am sad again
I wish I could change you
Because I don’t want to lose you
Even though I never really had you
I heard what you said about me- what a dumb *****


If I close my eyes I will awake from this dream
It will be perfect the way I want it
Nothing bad will have happened
You will really love me
And we will be together
Forever just like you promised
And then I won’t have to be- just another dumb *****.

09/05/05

I like how you write Calleigh...Love, pain and desire amalgamated, always makes for a great write...Go figure...

Thank you.

You said it right there! Hugs & Kisses!

Thanks Tanya.

i added to your poem


i had believ in you thinking you could had been the one, but you tend to run away from the world as you can see, trying to change you thats a laugh, i think im the dumb one for waiting on you for the next step to come for waiting for months on ends with out a peep as i guess needing me or i needing you is worth a cause, you told me you loved me, but yet you havent shown the proof as all i feel is being ignored and im pretty sure there are many lies im not aware of for there has been many broken promises, what the point you will keep doing what your doing, and look at me im still waiting but not for long

Thanks, Queene.

Believing in someone, is much like loving them, if they turn on you....and be cruel..
sorry this happen to you,,,and I think you write damn good,,
<--------gaurd this little red thing, and keep it close
and when the RIGHT one comes along,,,YOU will just KNOW!

Thank you.

Loved this write!

Thanks cherie and kc003

LOVE this, Calleigh!!

I can certainly relate.
Damn boys..

Thank you Ashley_renee.

Awesome. And I can totally relate to this poem. I think you hit a solid chord of human experience with this. Though it's not something anyone wants to go through, it's something that many, many people have felt.
Great write.

Thanks so much.

Although situations like this may hurt those involved, it is a learning curve. Yes, what goes around comes around, time will tell and karma will do the rest. Calleigh, you did proud on this write........... Dumb you're not!

i always leave money on the night stand before i leave

Thanks, Bonny, I'm certainly trying not to be.