none of it is easy.. none at all! you are a strong woman, of course i have luckily not had to go through it.. but by old girlfriend did... so i kind of know... a little anyway.. hers was different though non hodgekins is what hers was called.. was down her lymph nodes and into stomach.. ill tell u this.. that was 1995 and she is still here today.. though i no longer talk to her. last i knew it took it away . so dont be scared hun!!! just know that you will have something to look forward to... much love and prayers for you from me!!! missed u on here.. deb