They say everyone struggles with something every day, what is it that you struggle with?

Life...Death.....Heaven or Hell.......

I got no clue where I actually am.

I'm not afraid to say, I struggle
with analyzing. It is a tough trait to
get past.

Myself!

Interesting.

I struggle to truely appreciate the blessings i have been given.

I struggle with my past, did some bad stuff, and still run with the guilt of it all, always afraid someone will come up to me and say, hey why did you do that so many years ago, I still feel I might loose my job over it. Wierd, huh?

The list is probably too long to post!

I got no idea what I was doing before I got here.....probably the same thing I will be doing when I leave......either way, it wasn't good or bad enough to be memorable.

Heaven is supposed to be happy........I get happy.
Hell is supposed to suck.......Some days suck.

I sometimes think.....What if this is Heaven? (I will admit...if this is Heaven.....sure, it has it's upside but it is over hyped)

Some days I think....This could very well be Hell.

I just can't really decide what here and now is.....one thing I am completely confident of.......no one really knows....

This could be my Heaven...or my Hell...
This could be life....it could just as easily be what death really is.....

no damned wonder I am as jaded as I am.

Lately it has been figuring out my path in life.

Trying to find a woman to struggle with.

Actually my past has sucked the life from me, it has taken the happiness of laughing and put worriment in it place, even though it has been 35 years since it still seems like yesterday and it haunts me, I hate this about my life, but nothing can change the past.

I feel we were put on earth to help each other, the more you help others the more you get out of life.

when I get up in the morning and drive an hour into the city for dialysis and have needles shoved into my arm for four hours and drain all the blood out of my body and cleaned of poisonous wastes and toxins I struggle with whether to get an egg mcmuffin for breakfast or a big breakfast

That is a sweet and gracious sentiment that I really do abide by....or at least try my best.

Just confuses me when I see people who willingly throw friends/ family/ associates/ coworkers/ under the proverbial bus...and what they get out of life is new cars, big homes, luxury vacations and fat bank accounts.




.........and Quiet..........STOP EATING THAT McCRAP! Dude! (sorry....I detest fast food) Think fresh fruit or friggen venison!!!! Oh god.......backstrap with eggs RAWKS!

I am an @ss.......I got no clue about a dialysis diet but, venison can't be that bad!

mmmmm

backstrap mcmuffins

with green chilis

Amen Brother! God! I WANT ONE NOW!!!!!!!!!

Pain all over.