do you understand what you've done to me..do you
you've turned me into someone i never thought id be
afraid to trust, afraid to love, afraid to speak
afraid to look into the mirror, afraid of the reflection i might see

my innocence forever lost
taken by the hands i thought would hold me
but instead they slithered their way up to my throat
and choked the life from me

you said you were sorry
but i knew that was a lie
i knew you found enjoyment in making me cry
i could see it everytime you stared into my eyes

never ashamed, it made you a man
always had to prove your point
i was always in the wrong
never did anything quite right

i finally got the courage
to walk away and leave you behind
but you were right
you would always be a part of me

you still control me
probably without even knowing
i cant do anything without that fear taking over
i wish it would all just disappear

i wish i knew how...
wish i knew how to let go

omg you just hit a major spot in me i dont know if we are meaning the same thing but reading that just brought up billions of old memories that ive been hiding inside me forever. I've never read some thing that has ever touched me but yet at the same time me me sad but it was something that i really needed to hear. Thank you more than you will ever know.

thanks..if you ever need an outlet to vent or talk..just email me.

Days...

months...

years.

Always face it forward.

I've just been down the gullet
of an interstellar cockroach, kid.

That's one of a hundred memories
that I don't want.

See you around,Jay.



No,...you won't. <<<flash>>>

(from MIB)

very moving

Good write...

thanks