Lonely eye's squinting to see,
A certain longing willing to be
Vaccant places of a heart drowning,
Untamed by a name of
One unpleasent man
Less than unfortunate, really
Belonging to a life you've followed, faking
Spilling lies as you hide, smiling
Behind a mask of A glass case
Now just shattered pieces across your face,
Unable to see through you
Looking to you oh, such a disgrace
Waiting impatiently you wasted
for years I'll never experience
Cause for me, this shadow
Ha, me no I will not brake
You will never feel this, you will not take
That misery of a man more than pure
Pride stricken & filled by tears
Weak, standing, shaking. alone
Speaking few words, rarely ever shown
words of tourture mixed among painful memories
We will both borrow for ever, us
Me on my journey as a sorrow overwhelms
I look over my shoulder to swallow these tears
To hide from your abusing insults
Fading away into the shadows
Of fears that overwhelm me

very personal, thank you for sharing.