you know what, take your head out of the clouds and realize it's you who makes your life the way it is. You don't like it and you know nothing good is coming out of it, change it. If you don't want to change it then fine, be miserable. It's your life.

People in the forum tried to give you advice, take it or leave it. Don't sit there and whine about it.

Realize that ANYBODY can play the fool! That's why this song, originally recorded by "The Main Ingredient", was nominated for a Grammy in 1973.
THIS SONG GOES OUT TO YOU, MAN! (...and maybe myself, and others, I'm sure)
Ok, so your heart is broken
Youre sitting around mopin, mopin, mopin, cryin, cryin
You say youre even thinking about dying
Well, before you do anything rash, baby, listen to this

Everybody plays the fool, sometime
Theres no exception to the rule, listen baby
It may be factual, it may be cruel, I aint lying
Everybody plays the fool

Fallin in love is such an easy thing to do
But theres no guarantee that the one you love, is gonna love you
Oh, loving eyes they cannot see a certain person could never be
Love runs deeper than any ocean, it clouds youre mind with emotion

Everybody plays the fool, sometime
Theres no exception to the rule, listen baby
It may be factual, it may be cruel, I aint lying
Everybody plays the fool
How can you help it, when the music starts to play
And your ability to reason, is swept away
Oh, heaven on earth is all you see, youre out of touch with reality
And now you cry, but when you do, next time around someone cries for you

Hey, everybody plays the fool, sometime
Use your heart just like a tool, listen baby
They never tell you so in school, I wanna say it again,
Everybody plays the fool

Everybody plays the fool, sometime
Theres no exception to the rule, listen baby
It may be factual, it may be cruel, I aint lying
Everybody plays the fool

Every plays the fool, sometime
Theres no exception to the rule, listen baby
It may be factual, it may be cruel, I wanna say it again
Everybody plays the fool

When your feeling down
Nothing makes sense
When no help is around
and everyone babbles nonsense

When the light seems shining through
and your in love
When it seems good enough to be true
And your emotions are enough

When they aren't what they seem
and your heart is ripped out
When you want to blow some steam
Maybe scream and shout

Darkness envelopes you
For a little while
But the light will shine through
When you have the courage to smile

Don't sweat it, man. A lot of "retrospective geniuses" are gonna chime in on this to tell you what an idiot you are...
...however, they're only trying to convince themselves that the wool couldn't be pulled over THEIR OWN EYES, as well.
They are just as gullible.
Your number had just happened to come up.
There's nothing wrong with being a nice guy, and wanting to love someone special, who loves you back.
You'll be fine.

"retrospective geniuses"=

trublu4u
thx that really cheered me up and that was real nice thank you so much :)

Hey, you're a card-carryin' member of "The Brotherhood of Men", just like me!
We gotta look out for each other.

Exactly, dude...THEM.

if it helps any. you're in the middle of those "teenage angst" years

the depression and angst comes from hormones which at 19 are unbalanced and out of control

it gets better. by the time your 21 you'll be all settled and out bucking like a funny

GO BLOG BOLE GO, GO GO BLOG

THE LOOKS OF A GOD THAT IS SO ME NICE

put down the ecstasy and step away with your hands in the air

Matt, here's alil trick I use when I start gettin down an feelin like my life is crappy. Sit down an think bout the people who don't have it as good as u. The ones who've lost their homes, etc. The ones who are livin out on the street with no clue where they're gonna sleep tonight or where their next meal is gonna come from. Then think bout those that are stuck in an abusive relationship that don't have the strength to get themselves out of it. Or the ones who are with someone that's cheatin an they don't have the good sense to leave. Just remember one thing an use it as a mantra if u like. There's always someone worse off than u. Learn to appreciate the things that u do have in ur life.

or you could just come hang out with me for a day

that would surely make you feel better about your life

You are here on this site and there are so many great people here to might that are not fake...I assure you that you are not the first one who has fallen for some of the many spam messages of love being sent. Cheer up and have fun and make some friends and relax my friend..

Dude, one more thing. It is far safer for YOU to approach THEM, than to respond to someone who has approached YOU.
Not that you should rule out everyone who has approached you, but you would do well to place them into kind of an "emotional quarantine".
Here on mingle, you're often approached by "who viewed me". You would be wise to maintain a record of these, if you've responded to any of them. Be wary of the questions they ask you, if any.
I've communicated with a mingler or two, where the emails sent between us were VERY lengthy, discussing every idea about life, relationships, etc., point for point. Assuming my continued anonymity on this site (i.e., they don't know whether or not I'm wealthy, just lost my wife, etc., and emotionally vulnerable, etc.), as well as the fact that it was I who approached THEM first, I feel comfortable assuming her interest is genuine.
One should still keep the red warning lights at the ready, to be set off at the slightest inkling of mischief.
I recall my one and only visit to "Hooters", the "family" eatery where most of the women wear very tight t-shirts and orange hot pants. Each just happens to have a surplus in the boob department.
Our waitress was named, "Booger"; very sexy, very personable. She would put her hand on the shoulder of one or more of us as she spoke. She quickly brought up this obviously bogus story designed to make us drop our guard (...in case her tatas, hovering over our table as she served us, didn't work), and open up about our own lives. An old adage: "One does business with whom one is familiar". Point: she was stroking us for a tip! It made me wanna vomit. I never went back.
Listen: women have been more than compensated for generally not being as strong nor as favored in the job market (supposedly) as us.
THEY CAN BE EITHER VERY DEVIOUS FOR THEIR OWN ENDS, OR PERSUASIVE FOR THE BETTERMENT OF YOU BOTH.
A woman can "make you or break you". You have a 50-50 chance, in other words.
Just when you think your emotional Kevlar can't be breached, you find yourself mortally wounded.
Stay frosty, man. Keep a "weather eye" on the horizon.
Don't wear your heart on your sleeve.

just look at everyone as a scammer until they prove to you that they're not

Chalk it up, and be glad you had the experience. now you know better.

A good dose of xanex will knock you out of your depression.