Pain forever
In just a few words
The sands of my future plans
Slip from underneath me
I have two children
One I see and love every day
The other I have never held
I saw her once and I named her
A fetus only six months old
Emma Grace
Her tiny hands waved inside me
I smiled as the Dr informed me
Of the medical prognosis
Too lost in her movements
To listen
I knew she was a girl
Just how I knew Austin was a boy
I just knew
She didn't force me to eat all kinds of sweets
Only a girl could be that understanding of vanity
We played games
Her and I
She kicked me
In the same spot I had just pushed at her
At night I held my belly so tightly
I thought I was protecting her
Seems I never had that ability
Everyday I continue on
Smiling and laughing
Crying and hurting
Yet, I never really continue on
How can you live
Without closure
How can I ever move on
When my child
Never lived a day

oh man...and you said you couldnt imagine...

what you wrote was amazing kev..couldnt let that be passed up...

thanks, but can i ask why you post so many poems everyday that are just random thoughts and nothing more? If i were you, and you are more than welcome to tell me to go to hell, but why not wait til you have something great to post, every thought you have does not need to be posted.

i'm very sorry for your lose. i really don't know anything i could say to consoul you.... very sorry

9 years ago...one day at a time...

I am sorry for your loss, and genuinely understand what you feel and think. My littlest one, my Aurora Rose, would have been 12 last March. Not a day goes by I still don't feel the pain, the only thing that makes it a little easier, is knowing we can one day see them again.

Excellent write. And I am so sorry to hear of your loss.

niether can i....

We have very diff writing styles you and me

You don't like mine. That's ok. To you they are random thoughts

I enjoy yours. Would never be critical to you. I have no need to

Love to you

Tammy

the pain of loss so difficult to deal with-your expressions here are powerfully felt

She's right. They are random thoughts. They say absolutely nothing. They are as random as, "Hmmm, maybe I'll go for a run today" and then they're thrown out on the forum over and over and over, one random thought after another. You dont "write". You just verbalize your random thoughts. Maleah is right. If you actually sad down, didn't say a word for a few hours, gathered these random thoughts, you might actually have something to say. Think about it.

Maleah, you are in my thoughts...you and your little one...

Thanks for more of your input

It is noted and taken into consideration. Haha

Now I'm gonna go run

Then do a write on running

Cause that's just me

I love you. You make me laugh

Tammy

And you make me sad. Why dont you do a piece on your next bowl movement? How about baking cookies? Hey, did it sprinkle in your next of the woods? That can be an expect piece!

It's fairly pathetic when a woman such as yourself floods these forum with enormously poor work and tells everybody how tremendous talented she is. Good lord. How delusional. I cannog for the life of me wonder why on earh nobody has been kind enough or friend enough to you to tell you that this is never going to work for you.

Well, whatever it takes to get you thru your day <<pats Gossipgirl on her head placatingly>>

Thank you for your input once again

Your such a nice sweet nurturing type woman

I have loved getting to know you

You will always be special to me

Thanks for the headpatting. My daughters are always doing that to me!! LOL

All my love
Tammy