Do you remember about times when it was laid out right front of you and you didn't react?
Like, someone was just so into you or you felt like everything is laying front of your on a silver plate and you didn't take it? And every time you remember about it, you feel like beating your head into the wall?

Since I never was presented with such an opportunity in the first place, I would have respond with a resounding "no".

every time i think about it, i just go tripping all over my guilt again, which is similar to banging the head into a brick wall. a good thing, i just didn't give it enough of a chance, my loss...and now, i'm going to go sulk for a bit.

...sometimes i feel like that,but then you really don't know how it would have turned out..it might have been your worse nightmare...flip the coin...there always an opposite side...

I was actually thinking about this earlier

there wasn't a time i didn't step up to the plate

i was with a other half ,but..............

i wondered what would it been like if i would of bailed ...

i guess its one of them things

shoulda woulda coulda

there was a cute az army guy i wanna bite myself that i didn't bone him

five or six things..... years past.... wrong timing....point is, i'm acting now. where it goes, it goes, no worries, no hurries... nature does or doesn't..... the Asia song...only time will tell. it's the way it should be with all things, they either happen or they don't.

i've been through too damn much to dwell on the negative, it would surely kill me or at the least, give me cancer, so sunshine and clear roads to look ahead to, and i just wish i was a little more confident in myself sometimes. a flaw i'm correcting as i go.

i came from utter distruction, and casting the ashes to the wind to start afresh with new kharma.....

I think I am too oblivious to things!

If ever the chances were there and I was interested, I either knew and took it -- or I never knew to begin with ...

In terms of relationships, I'd hope the guy would smack my bum and say, "Hey, blondie, I dig you!"

I knew a girl in a mall..she worked at bath/body ..damn, others kept telling me to date her because she is going nuts after me...but somehow I just didn't like her..don't know why. She was all red and shaking when i walked in to that store...I sorta miss that, I should have at least tried to get her know better.

But if you're not interested, you're not interested. Chemistry is usually there from the start, and as you get to know them it either builds or wanes.

It is flattering when someone is smitten over you. ... but, that only goes so far too.

'Mutual' is always the Holy Grail! Apply that word to most scenarios and it almost always fits!

I am the one with the silver plate nobody wants!!

When you are lonely it is easy to second guess your previous decisions.

My guess is there was something instinctively that made you pass then and it would have probably been another disaster.

Just because she was hot for you does not mean you would have liked the attention after a while. Passion does not necessarily mean lasting or faithful love sometimes it is just transference for some neurotic need.

Hang in there you will met someone and probably when you least expect it.

Yes........but at the time I didnt feel for that person the same way. I even tried to make myself "want" to...my parents liked him, my son liked him......but I just thought of him as a friend.