From day one, I was unplanned and unwanted,
And had dark angels all around me so I know that I'm haunted,
I felt the winds of pain, startin at around age five,
When I first had that dream that all the people close to me died
Then came the lyin, from the same people I was close to,
I was taught to keep my word, now ain't they supposed to?
I grew up quiet, with pain flowin in my veins like blood,
Cuz everybody showed me hate, and I thought it was love.
I got taken to psychiatrists the first time in 3rd grade,
I guess they wanted to see the devil inside me that they made,
I cried every other night, cuz my parents would fight,
While prayin the one that they called God would finally show me the
light.
But all I saw was his might, I think he did it outta spite,
Since I was an accident that finally became an oversight.
Try as I might, still got my fists clenched tight,
But stayin mute or crackin jokes so everyone thought I was alright.
I did okay for a while, then came Jr. High,
My first day there was a day I almost died.
I had a gun put under my chin, and they said that they'd do it,
If I didn't give em all my money, so I did and said screw it.
It's wierd how ya feel in the presence of death,
Then gettin your ass whooped at home for havin no money left.
After that I started smokin weed and drinkin alcohol,
And no big surprise, my grades started to fall.
I'd get my ass whooped more for things I did in high school,
But I tried to keep quiet, cuz that's the number one rule.
I had failed relationships with friends and potential lovers,
And not to mention how I was treated by my father an mother.
Then came this one girl, she said that she liked me,
This all started one summer in the middle of the 90's.
Everything started great, but then sh*t grew stagnent,
Then she came to me with a test that said she was pregnant.
She dumped me right then, but acted like she kept me on her mind,
But when she had my baby boy, she said his last name is not mine.
I didn't get to be there, she didn't call me when it happened,
Then her family started doggin me, for not takin action.
She never wanted me there, all she wanted was a check,
I suppose money was the thing that kept her panties wet.
So I was payin child support, with no rights of visitation,
But whenever she called, I was there with no hesitation........




To Be Continued at a later day......

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WoW!!! I will await for the next chapter

Thanx ladies. I got tomorrow off, so I'll probably have paper and pencil
in hand.

red I see jesus has big purpose for you, it is not jesus tormenting but
satan he sees that god has big plans for you.
please never think of jesus as a bully.
he never mskes mistakes either.

Wonderman is right! God knew you from the beginning...
You were not a mistake but destined to be a part of His great plan.
There are no mistakes in His plan.