we also sent him to a free psychologist.
told his parents that he needed to go.

killx, you are far too entrenched in the whole religion thing. You
mention how you try to be good, to please your Dad to please your
boyfriend - have you also made commitments to your religion just to
please?

Do you really think that you will have some revelation from God, or
expect some personal communication? Do you really think that you can
ever be perfect?

Stop trying to please everyone else. You are in need of some
self-evaluation.

What kind of person do you want to be? What kind of friend do you want
to be? Can you honestly answer these and feel it would not be
approved of by God? If not, change it, God wont change it for you.

When you know that you are a good person, when you realize that you can
and never will be perfect. You will find peace in whatever you choose
to believe. But don't try to make your peace come from what anyone else
tells you.

Strengh is standing up in the morning, putting your feet on the ground,
getting dressed and walking. Life is what happens when you have the
strength to do that first thing. Friends are the support that get you
through life. If you can not be honest with your friends, you have the
wrong friends.

But first be honest with yourself. You are so much stronge than you can
imagine. You wrote this topic, how much strenght that must take.