Hey, I just need to write out some thoughts. I don't really care if i get feedback or not, and this place is open just for others to vent out stuff they need to also.

You see I suffer from anxiety, I have since my mid teens. I have a decent handle on it and cope without needing to medicate for it. It hits me when things are in transition. The best I can describe it is; I worry about the coming summer during winter, and I worry about the coming winter during summer. It is not an everyday struggle, but the days it does loom over me i just need to vent it out.

Next week my next semester starts and so it has stuck me once again. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin yet again. Worrying about things I shouldn't, but I can't help myself. My runs its course when this hits I just try to relax and ride along till I can get it to pass. I typically beat it easily with distraction, but not having anybody to talk to here (visiting my parents in a different state) finding the easy distraction of conversation is difficult. I feel like I want to pull away, run away with nowhere to go.

Alright ... that got a bit of the burden off of my chest. Odd sometimes how it is so much easier to just vent out to strangers even though i don't know who might read this or what they may think. hrm...

So what's bothering you?

we all have different levels of anxiety...whether we know it or not...glad you feel better

I guess in many ways I've had general anxieties. Some are valid abreactions from events in my life.
I was sideblinded in 2006 with an acute anxiety of highway driving. Did the hypno-therapy and it has helped to a degree, but I cannot believe that even happened to me. But it does happen. It's like a general healthy fear has hit over-drive.

Meee too!! Anxiety sucks!!
But things will get better, just keep on keepin on!! Thats what I do!!

I hated how medications made me feel when I tried them in my teens. I was suffering deep depression then as well. I made up my mind I couldn't live with them in my life so I taught myself a lot of tricks. Venting out like this is one of them. I acknowledge it now and make myself deal with it. When I crash into it full force I can often break through it. If not... well those are the very rare very bad days. I understand the source, the problem and many solutions to it, it is just a matter of going through the steps

Glad to see you have a handle on it bro! That statement you made "not having anybody to talk to here" was a thing for me also and I stayed away from this site for a number of months. The day I came back I realized that this site does more for me than anything. Good people here for the most part and you will see that also. Hang in there!

The statement about "here" wasn't so much about the site as it was about where I am physically.

that is so true the people here for the most are very nice and understanding

warm hearted people youcan call on when ever you need to

im happy to meet you ((kaysler))

My Pleasure ((Grammy)) =)

thank you ((kaysler))

so what does anyone else have to vent about?

Hey Kaylser! You can always drop me a line. I don't mind letting people vent to me.

Thanks Angie The offer is quite nice of you.

Vent

Do you believe in God?

That's a completely different topic but SUPER simplified; I believe there is a god but i do not believe it is a god that would damn good people for calling it by a different name. God appears to different to each culture to deliver the same messages.

So yes I have faith.