Another day, more thoughts. I finished the first task. I'm ready to move on to the next task. But my body hurts and I want to go to the chiropractor today. And I really want to take a nap. And I'm still thinking about finishing up my shopping for Santamas. I need to call the doctor back...need more antibiotics. I still have bronchitis. I got a call for a job interview on Monday. I have to reschedule other things to do that. I helped my son revise his essay last night. He needs a thesaurus. He needs a hat too. Baby girl is so cute and sweet. At least all of the orders are outside ready to be picked up by the mailman. I don't know what's going on this weekend. I'm thinking that the trip away won't be happening because K didn't call me back. And I'm ok with that. Actually, I think I'm more than ok with that. I'm thinking that the call might come and I really don't want it to. I need to work on these projects. I got a call to work today, but I couldn't do it. The call didn't come until after 6 and I need to leave by 630 to get there in time. But maybe the interview will pan out and I'll get that. Maybe they scheduled me so late because they think they're going to like me. And then that would be a job through the end of the school year. That would rock. And I could move on with the other things I need to do. I hate this day to day stuff. I thrive on having the same gig every day. I could adjust to seventh grade, right? It can't be that different from eighth. But it is a long drive. That's ok though too. I just need to know that I can do it. And then I can work on getting everything moving and get my future more sure and stable. But right now, I think I want to eat and take a nap. I want to start reading the book again, but I know if I do that, I'll be too awake and won't be able to nap. I'm going to call the doctor, eat, take a nap, then read. That sounds like a good plan. I have to do inventory too, but that can wait for now. This is the plan. And still I wonder if I have ADD.

lol,..nap sounds like a great idea,..

for me too,..( and I just got up,.. ) lol

So I ate and took the nap. I think I felt worse after the nap. I picked up the new antibiotics, probably a good thing since I ended up with a fever again so the bronchitis is definitely back. I took baby girl to her dance class and had mine too. Jamie was there. Her little girl is in E's new class. And Jamie wants to do tap with me. That would be so cool! She danced with me tonight and it was awesome. I hope she decides to stick with it. I've danced alone for so many years, I would love to dance with someone else again. I didn't get to read anything today. I feel so bad. I don't feel like reading tonight either, but I know the clock is ticking. I'm running out of time. Oh, and Jamie's husband was there and wow...if that wasn't a message. Duh. I'm listening. I got the message. I'm feeling much more relaxed, destressed, and focused now. I'm definitely not as scattered as I had been the past few days. This is good. I need focus. I need to start kicking it with the stuff I need to get done for next week. Then there will be time to kick back for a little bit anyway...before the new life begins. Or something like that.

I didn't sleep well. I feel horrible. I have to start getting this stuff done. I don't feel like it.

I guess I finally processed this and posted about it. I'm letting him go so I can be free to move on. Yet, I still feel my magic kitchen burning for him. I wish he could find the warmth there, but he's lost. It's ok. I'll just walk my path.

So many options. Too much to think about. But just going to think about having fun for now.