A Journey


As I sit; here shivering in the bitter cold
As I sit; here in dead silence when its pitch black
As I sit; pondering your actions, so bold
As I sit; picking up the pieces, picking up the slack

Memories; flash within my mind
Memories; full of powerful emotion
Memories; full of Love so kind
Memories; full of my incessant devotion

Tonight; I lie awake, I cannot sleep
Tonight; I won't give up, I'm ready to fight
Tonight; I want, what I can't keep
Tonight; it's Dark, there is no light

Too many; things I have taken for granted
Too many; missed opportunities and second chances
Too many; times I screamed, yelled and ranted
Too many; missed days, nights and lustful glances

Happy thought of the things we've planted
Drunken thought of when my eyes were slanted

Where are you; my love
What are your thoughts; my love
What have you done; my love
What have I done; my love

Do you ever think of me as you're White Night
Me the one, wearing a Mask; Me – he who wore a disguise
The one YOU brought out of Darkness and into the light
It was me perhaps I was full of deceit, full of lies

You say you can see it in my eye's
The Anger, The Madness, The Pain
You say it's me, the one who you despise
I say it was you, for I am the one who was slain

It's all about Me; That's what you said – I am the one to blame

Tell me about your thoughts, tell me your plan
Why did you run, away… so far away
Tell me why I am no longer your man
I can live without you day after day

Even though I think of you Night and Day
Even though I think of you in a loving way

I ask Myself; Were you really my lover
I ask Myself; Were you really my soul mate
I ask Myself; Why did you give up the fight
I ask Myself; What went right, what went wrong

Tell me were you really who I thought you were
Why in the end didn't I know you nor you know me
I don't think so, so tell me now, things are a bit of a blur
Can you at least tell me how this came to be

Or did you too, wear a disguise

Are you my Angel; for I though you were
Are you my burning Fire; for I thought you were
Are you my true Desire; for I thought you were

Are you… I ask… Are you

How is it that you; got up and left our home
How is it that you; took off on our dream
How is it that you; left me all alone to roam
How is it that you; never learned to blow off steam

Tell me; Did we even have a plan, a dream
Tell me; Why you didn't throw sand when I lost my traction
Tell me; Were we ever on the same team
Tell me; How do you justify your actions

What am I left with, Me, Myself and I
That's ok, I am still very strong
You left me here all alone to cry
Leaving me here, when things went wrong

Wondering if this is it till the day I die
No, I don't think so, I will meet another
I have done it all, there is nothing left to try
Forever remembering you like no other

Questioning myself if this is what I really want
Questioning myself if this is what you really want

I live my life in a dream, a fantasy

I believe in karma
I believe in fate
I believe in destiny
I believe in you

I do not understand; myself
I do not understand; you, my wife
I do not understand; why I played that night elf
I do not understand; the meaning of life

At times I think there is a master plan
If you will, a Purpose, a Destiny, a Fate

I am living on the Razors Edge

Waiting; to meet my fate
Waiting; to meet my maker
Waiting; to meet my soul mate
Waiting; because I am no faker

I am; a taker
I am; a giver
I am; a receiver
I am; unique

I am; the one who is true
I am; a Saint, A God
I am; a Demon, A Devil
I am; Life and I am death

An Archangel cast to the bowels of Hell
If I can be all of this – what am I…
Who am I…?

Lost… I am completely forlorn
Wondering around finding my way
Lost… because my world has been torn
That was yesterday, that's not today

That was the day I lost my way
In a fit of Passion, I decided to play with fire
This decision had a price to pay
All because I tried to take what I desire

Of course I was burnt
Pushed off my mighty throne
This was a lesson well learnt
Felt her chill to the bone

I will; play with fire again
I will; get burnt now and then
I will; continue on my way
I will; sure as night turns to day

I can look towards the sunset
I can see my path
I can … see it's

Twisted; just like me
Twisted; like a tree
Twisted; is what makes me free
Twisted; so bad I can hardly see

I have a lot to give
I have a lot to take
I have a lot to learn
I have a lot to teach

As I sit on the Razors Edge
Which way shall I fall

The Razor's edge you ask…

It's like a fork in your Path
Maybe balancing on a rail
The calm before the wrath
It's never making a deal

I can fall to the side of the saints
I can fall to the side of the demons

Now, I ask you this…

Why can't I ride the Razors Edge
Living the life of each side
Creeping and Crawling on an infinite ledge
Just waiting for my worlds to collide

Where I can be whatever I want
Nice and Sweet or Twisted and evil


The Razor's Edge, where there is no judge
The Razor's Edge, I like it here – in the middle
The Razor's Edge, where no one holds a grudge
The Razor's Edge, unraveling my life like a riddle

It is now that I will say my goodbye to you
Goodbye and Farewell my sweet love
I can't think of you anymore
I want to walk the path
On my own
Walk the path
To find myself
Walk the path Alone

To meet; my maker
To meet; my lover
To meet; myself

I leave you with my heart
It's yours
I don't need it anymore

She holds for me a new heart
The one who's been idly waiting
She who has loved me from the start
The one who carries me through the life I am creating

The one who replaced you
The moment took my heart away
The one I turned too when you said we were through
The one I carry when she has an off day

She is the one who can see into my soul
I never have to question the one who is just like me
I am the one who can see into her soul
The only problem is setting my self free

Timing is everything and it's not now
I just have to wait till the love is gone
I know this, but can't tell you how
Yet, I walk on – I walk on

I will meet her again
As I will meet you again

I hate you and I love you
You are my Razors Edge

that was absolutely awesome

Anything that causes the reader to reflect on his/her own perceptions is quality. Creates some powerful images. Thanks. Keep it up.

Thanks for the responses. This really helped me deal with some pain I was going through. "OfTheLake" It's good to know that people could relate with this.

a very moving and powerful write...welcome to the poetry forum

WOW! That was awesome! and i mean that too! I loved that! ok maybe I am making a big deal about it, but I call them like I see them, that was great. good job! I so related with this, very cool.

Thank you "pkd1220" and "inkraven86" for your replies - I hope to post more soon =)