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A name can be unknown
to its owner. “This is me” holds nothing necessary. A name is not a guarantee. Meaning happens suddenly, accidentally – in the bank billboard’s Halloween spider imploring you to buy and borrow. In the stranger’s “**** you!” as the bus pulls away – tributaries of self branch like cracks in a broken windshield. The spider, the curse, the arbitrary – press buttons, turn knobs, hammer gears in the skull. The light box stammers on. All the old negatives begin to glow. The name breaks from the inside. Pieces of shattered shell are scattered around the nest, Once legs ran from teeth now they test flight. Gliding, giving names, classifying, the world becomes a library of rocks. In the quiet, in the dust, each stone is stamped with a fingerprint’s grooved egg. Categorize, catch space in sections, push air through soap’s surface. Pressure holds the clear iridescent spheres, tiny ghosts of the great liquid globe. Fragile as a bubble, the body always floats down the road’s last mile. It yearns for maudlin hours in the armchair, incorporated armature, amateur handguns. Skin seeks defense against time’s incisors. But mind still pleads with suffering: “Transfer your broken bones to me. Crack my ankles, break my arms, twist my knees. My fingers are cables – send me your nerves’ frantic energy.” Days pare down. Years carve the retina’s curve. Torso, legs are shaped by trial and chance. Arms’ length is all passion and remonstrance. As the crow rants listen for familiar syllables. Recognize letters in the falling spider’s trance tying line from gutter to ground. The prey’s vibrations excite the web, echoes of energy shake through the filament. Busy autumn insects will soon be gone. Time to trip on slick steps, slip on black ice, back slapping concrete. Time to fall asleep in cold sunlight, crimson leaves dropping. Dream of living underwater where falling is easier. The surface, a tall ceiling spreading air’s light, sifting the sun’s tension through a gray haze. Emerge, frightened, through the sick tide that climbs and drops. Lips sign frantic denials. The beach is a smile of debris. Eyes open in a moonless void. The body needs sleep but the dark is colonized by day. Night is mortgaged to an early morning. Awake, thoughts crest and break – hands around a pale waist, touching temples, framing a face. Awake, there’s an alarm in someone’s car. A motor skims the toxic reservoir. In a loud world quiet words forage to survive. Whispering is digitized, wire-bound, bounced from ground to satellite and back. Senders and receivers wait alone. Mind paces in its pit of bone. The tap of a nickel flipped from thumb to palm expires before it rises to the ear. Nearly all the noise is poisonous. The clamor of engines is constant. Stuttering explosions wreck the calm. Those on high buy silence. Those below are assaulted by television and radio. Every song that’s played is known. Lyrics are laced with petty wants. Ears hunt for terror’s trace, the tremble of a haunting line, notes of the implosion. Vision escapes, looks past the atmosphere to scan galaxies, elopes from Mars to Jupiter’s bloody eye to the bloom of a solar storm. Rope it back. Turn the telescope on this tiny distant room. This house cages electricity and heat. Close the window, bring the lens inside. Outside the cold grows thick and heavy. Frost frets from roof to lawn. For proof, toss the lamp through the doorway. Watch hot glass explode in frozen air. Now the chair, the teak table. Cram the couch through the front door. Make the yard a burning disaster. No more dusting, no more taking care. No more porcelain figurines for masters. No one will starve and call it living. No more forgiving the command and calling it freedom. No more strangers watching strangers from house to house. No more paying from week to week and calling it making money. Home is another country. Weekends are a foreign holiday from the scent of toner, the comfort of dust and paper clips. At home the fridge is broken, the faucet drips. The week is only hours away. Vermilion clouds clap and march at the edge of a dying Sunday. |
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I so enjoy coming to your home and seeing the essence of you
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glowing neon decorations
little shining nooses hang in our garden times square of sin city warm visual cacaphony pelting me with little bits counter-revelry cast in the mosh carried off millipedes snaking away on countless legs drumming in waves on the compost jungle |
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