It just never seems to end lately... things get goin' and they're awesome and now a few things have been turning everything else upside-down eventually though i suppose it'll get better. At the moment my older brother could really use some prayers and good thoughts, he's been going through a really hard time and last night when he lost his girlfriend it was the last straw he really doesn't care anymore. He's thought about doing somethin' stupid before but something always stopped him either his plan failed or she calls him this time though I don't think that'll happen. Most of my night was spent worrying and praying that now isn't his time. He's not my real brother but he and a few others guided me through some of the darkest days I've ever seen and he means very very much to me. Some of you might remember the post about t he car accident that was really bad...same brother in all honesty I haven't been this scared in quite awhile so as many prayers as you're willing to say for him would be greatly appreciated his name is Erik by the way

my prayers go out to him, but you need to get him some help quick.