What have I done?

How did it go so wrong?

My heart aches by day and breaks every night.

How could I have pushed you away?

What could I have done differently?

I expected too much.

Everything happened so fast.

I was caught up in my own unsecurities and confusion.

But you said we were working on things.

You said you love me.

Does that not count for something?

How hard would it be to try?

Putting all the other pressures aside?

If your love was true, this you would do..

I sit here confused, tearing myself apart, where can I hide?

No where. Nowhere can I hide from the one inside that pursecutes me.

For that one is me.

I guess this is how it is going to be.

I can't chase you forever,

I have begged for forgiveness and mercy to a deaf ear.

Just know, in my heart I hold you dear.

I miss you. I love you. I wish we could compromise and work this out.

Does your heart break too? If so, then why won't you move?

Come close so I can hear,

Come wipe away my tears.

Reality of today is temporary,

The stress that is now will pass.

When it does, will my face, memories of me, come to you at last?

I'll take all the blame,

most is mine anyway.

If it's ego, how will that help when you are alone and miss me?

The hole you've dug your heels in, Can you, will you break free?

Sometimes reason is enough,

sometimes emotions are what we need to see,

Will you please look to your heart and tell me where each stand?

Are you ignoring my plea?

I want you in my life.

Less than a month ago I was told you wanted me to be your wife.

Are all those feelings gone now?

Was the love that shallow?

If so why did you cry? I could see the pain in your eyes.

I didn't want you to leave,

Only to make the right decision for you.

I feared you would leave me,

I told you this two or three times,

Now it has happened and I wonder if I will ever trust again.

It wasn't the original plan.

You were the first man I felt I could truly trust in years
Now you are gone and I'm in tears.

I don't know what else to say.

Except I think you are amazing in so many ways.

I'm sorry I didn't communicate it well enough.

I focused only on the rough stuff.

Now the question is do you love me enough to take another chance?

To start slow and build again?

I can say yes.

I wish you would too.

It was less than 24 hours ago you said you loved me,too.

Will your actions show it?

Or will you just leave me here feeling blue?

Please, baby, please.... can't you feel my heart breaking?

I try not to contact you,

not to call,

to let you contact me first.

This is my only release.

It's just a tease.. no response...only anticipation of something,

I hold on to hope, because that's all I have.

I love you. I miss you...I miss your kisses, your soft tongue on mine,

I miss holding you, cuddling with you...

Don't you miss me?

Was it all a farce?

Was I just a place to stay?

Was I going to be history one day anyway?
How will I ever know?

Only if I hear from you.

I'm trying to set you free,

because I know you don't want me.

I'm just having a hard time

With so many questions that are unanswered on my mind.

You did so much for me and I didn't see,

How foolish I was.

Won't you hear my heart felt plea?

Please, baby, please come back to me.

nice

thank you

Very moving....May God give you the answers you seek

Take comfort in kinowing that there are at least some people that care for you..

Ah {{{Sweetie}}}
I hold you in an embrace of friendship.
May you feel comfort soon in your heart.