MARCH 07, 2007

WOW THIS IS HARD TO SAY, I AM AN ATTRACTIVE FEMALE, HAVEN'T DATED IN
SEVEN YEARS, MOVED TO WASHINGTON IN 2004, STARTED ON LINE DATING, I
THOUGHT IT WAS THE PANACIA OF FINDING LOVE, WELL I DID MEET SOMEONE
IN ANOTHER STATE, HARD TO DO DATING ONLY ONE WEEKEND A MONTH, AND
HAVE IT SURVIVE, ANYWAY IT HAS BEEN ALMOST TWO YEARS NOW, THEN I
REALIZED HE HAS IMPOTENT PROBLEMS, SO SEX WAS NOT IN THE PICTURE FOR
US, THEN I SAW HIS PROFILE ON ANOTHER DATING SITE, I CONFRONTED HIM
ON
THIS ISSUE, OF COURSE HE LIED TO ME, HA HA...GO FIGURE, I HAVE BEEN
HERE
FOR HIM, ALL THIS TIME, TOTALLY VACANT OF LOVE, SEX, I AM JUST
MISERABLE,
I WANT LOVE, AND MORE, I HOWEVER JUST WON'T GO HAVE SEX WITH ANY MAN
THIS IS JUST ME, WHO I AM, I THINK GUYS CAN DO THIS ANYTIME, WITH OUT
ANY
GUILT FEELINGS, I CANNOT...I FEEL SO CHEAP INSIDE...I HAVE NOT HAD ANY
SEX
IN 8 MONTHS, WHEW, NOW MY URGES ARE FORE FRONT, AND I CANNOT GET ANY
RELEASE, MASTERBATION, DOESN'T DO IT FOR ME, I SO MISS THE TOUCHING,
AND CARING...MY LIBIDO IS VERY STRONG, HERE, STILL, I AM SUFFERING,
SO
INSIDE, AS I AM TERRIFIED TO DATE AGAIN, BEING CHEATED ON, AND IT HAS
BEEN
SO LONG SINCE I WAS MARRIED, I AM IN A TWIZZLE HERE, DO I JUST NOT
HAVE
SEX AT ALL, EVER, JUST HIDE MY PASSIONS, DRIVE, FOR GOOD, HOW DO I
TRUST
MEN, WHO SAY THEY LOVE YOU THEN THEY MOVE TO DATING OTHERS, AND YOU
DON'T FIND OUT TILL YOUR HEART IS DEAD INSIDE...I AM A HEALTHY
WOMAN,
I FEAR STD'S MEN DON'T USE CONDOMS, HOW UNFAIR IS THIS??? I AM SO
VERY
FRUSTRATED IN MY HEART, BODY, WHAT DO I DO WITH MY SEX DRIVE?? I WAS
SO
CLOSE TO ENDING MYSELF, AS A HUMAN BEING, THINKING I WILL DIE ALL
ALONE
WITH NO ONE TO CARE, OR LOVE ME, ANY SUGGESTIONS, THERAPY??? TRY TO
DATE AGAIN, TRY, TRY, TRY, TO GET SOMEONE TO BE UP FRONT AND HONEST,
I JUST CANNOT DO CASUAL SEX, I WON'T DO THIS, OH MY THIS IS A
PICKLE.. SO
THANKS FOR LISTENING, HERE.......CINJWOO

Wow sorry to hear your please and can sure understand frustration. I
hope the best for you and most important thing is you and you deserve
the best.

sorry to hear this.. I think we all have been in simular situations like
this one.. I have been through this.. All of the emotions. first feeling
alone, then angry, then sad, then vunerable. It took me some time to get
through these. I can only say that it has made me a stronger, smater,
and more understanding.. than I was before.. I got sick an tired of
feeling sorry for myself and got up and said hell no she is not going to
beat me.. and the truth was that even after a coouple mo apart I relized
that is what she was doing to me. You can raise above this and move on..
I am sure of it..

Your not alone, I have been single for three years now and have not had
sex for one year and I am a 30 year old women. I can't have sex with
just anybody either. The only different between you and I is the fact
that I am gay, so women are no better than the guys. It will get better
within time, but to be honest, if the feeling gets to bad, just let
yourself go and have sex. You only live once.

cinjwoo, u musta been reading my mail...my situation is quite similar to
yours, since my divorce in '99...best of luck to u...hang in there!!!
i'm not a religious sort, but when i need a boost, i read 1 corinthians,
chap 13, verses 4-13..(love defined)

Here's a smiile to help make your day. That's a pretty rough
ticket to handle.I hope you thing look up for you.