I’m confused
Addled
Confounded
Astounded
Once again
By the idiocy
Of my imbecilic
Harebrained
Self-destructive
Little heart

I kept swearing
I just wasn’t going to
Walk that walk
Talk that talk
But he walked in
Sweet as sin
Now here I am
Once again
Drowning myself
In the seas
Of mental
Chaos

Feeling vulnerable
Exposed
Laid out
Like a snack tray at
A party for the homeless
I’ve placed myself
On the table
For consumption
Rare and bloody
On the platter

But there’s no
Simple bleed out
For me this time!
No sir!
This time
I’ve ripped open
An artery and
There’s no tourniquet
Tight enough
To stop
The flow

So here I go
Down the road
To self sabotage
Once again
Wanting answers
Too soon
For questions
Not ready
To be asked

My insecurities
Inferiorities
Burning me up
Like mental wild fire
Out of control
Does he love me?
Does he want me?

Poor guy can’t
Get a break
All because
I’m so emotionally
Rusty
Out of sync
Out of whack
Don’t know how to act
My license to practice
Expired

You’d think I’d learn
From all the burns
I’ve inflicted on myself
In similar
Hysterical cookouts
I’m my own
Arsonist
Starting glorious fires
That I’ve
Idiotically
Put out
Just when they
Were starting to
Flicker
Higher
And brighter

I wonder now
If its time
To step back
And see
How hot
This inferno
Can burn?

To let it bloom
Overwhelm and
Consume me
…and stop
Drenching it
Coldly
with water???




awh June 2008

excellent...

Can I get some fries with that? Yum!

AWESOME writing!

I do not know what to think about this writing..over 3 thousand posts on here and this is where your at today..let me for one moment think why a guy would contact you after reading something like this...can't think of one reason unless he is self destructive... please lighten up..you'll live longer..i have always been taught that negative actions get negative results and an action like this writing should be kept to ones self...no good can come of it...what was the purpose in it...to inform us of how leary we should be of you. or to bring others down...please explain and maybe I'll understand...just my opinion....

thanx for the blue box literary review

Wow...after reading your response I am not sure if Sigmund Freud himself explained it to you that you would get it
The fact that you might be leery of anyone after reading a few lines of self expression tells much about you and your lack of human understanding.
I think this is in no way negative it is an introspective view that more people should be as honest about and as willing to express...sometimes there are more to things than just the words
There is beauty in all expression for those of us with open minds. This write is a good example of one person looking inside for truth instead of relying on someone else to supply it
Not a bad way to live if you ask me (just my opinion)

MsW is one of the very few that writes about what is really true...Regarless of the topic...

Or how hard of a topic it might be...

Some people are simply not afraid of their own raw humanity

hold on i'm still looking for the :butthead: smiley

Rare and bloody. Seared in juices. Cold center.
Just the way I like it.

Thank you Beauty

Would you like them supersized? *grin*

Oh thank you jimz you big sweetie!

Hmmmm....just your opinion. Well Carl Jung...let us dissect this. After all of what? 9 posts, and the inability to put up a picture so we can see who is giving us such a concise and well written critique (cough cough) I'm horribly impressed. Fortunately for me, I'm not the anal retentive that you apparently feel I should be, having knowing me for all of...oh wait you DON'T know me. I dont owe you any explanations. If you're so shallow that you can't see or feel what I was writing about, that's your problem, not mine. If you dont care to read my poetry, here's a clue: dont read it. <<singing "God bless americaaaaaaaaa>> that's right son, you have options. Just click on by.....

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

Thank you my lamb and its not always easy to write....as you well know....thank you for your support How are you feeling darling?

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Oooh care for seconds? *grinning wickedly* (((((H))))