WELL If you "Throw in the Towel"..."let someone find you"..you have no one to blame but yourself! You only get what you think you deserve and what you go after! The whole trouble on here is people afraid of rejection! That is silly peopples...we are adults not 12 yr olds. Open yourself up to someone! No one can come through a locked door. If it doesn't work out it merly means the two of you were not right together...not that there is anything wrong with either of you. It also means , "when one door closes another one opens"...something better is in store...but, you can miss it if you lock the door! So STOP IT! Go right now and email someone and let htem know you are interested. If they don't respond in a positive manner...email another...keep on and I will bet you you will find someone that was just waiting to hear from you...