Lord,how insane am I
the apple of my mamas eye
what happened to her baby
he's a slut on justsayhi
Just like his father
who never cared to bother
he's not a family man
his marriage ran its course
thrown face first in divorce
the family is drowning,
but he's drinking again
Thoughts are repeated
the ideas I abuse
I want my life to be perfect
a little more like you
but if you take all my trials
and begin to see them clear
what do you think of me father
now that you're looking in the mirror


I was a child of constant misfortune
of heartache and disappointment I once lived
I'm the bastard son of Nicholas
so much poverty spawned from that prick of his
No child should ever live like this



From the slums of a poor new jersey
he was the gigalo of his town
how he carried himself was near deadly
but he moved without a sound
He appeared just like a thief in the night
the way they said Jesus would come
but I don't feel acknowledged this time
though I'll always be his son




I was a child of constant misfortune
of heartache and disappointment I once lived
I'm the bastard son of Nicholas
so much poverty spawned from that prick of his
No child should ever live like this





And father I don't wanna be like you
I wanna find one girl that I can love
Someone who will make me feel less broken and abused
Someone who can wash away these thoughts
Mother,I am not the sins you burn
I am not your mistake,I'm the lesson you must learn
I feel your hatred,like an endless misery
For the love of god don't let dad
remind you of me