there was time, i guess i didnt see, as there may had been many flaws, and choices that i had, i cared for you, but yet i didnt treat you the way you should had been treated. as i kept telling myself and you that things would change as where i ended up braking to many promises and your heart as well, i cared deeply for you, but the only thing i did was prove myself wrong, i was only thinking of my own satisfaction when the booze was always on my mind.. as i know now im all alone in my own grief and knowing that i need to go through a healing process of my own

Wow, thats some heavy stuff, great write man.

Yes it is your healing journey, and yours alone.

But you are not alone

it had nothing to do with me.. it just reminded me of one of my ex bf, as he is a alcoholic and i still talk to him every now and then, and he thinks that when a beer is offered to him, he has to have it.. thats not so.. if he would change his ways he would be a great guy....