I pretend he's never on my mind
Thoughts of him loving another never make me cry
Anger never surges through these veins
Nope everything is fine
Emotions have been shut down
Locked deep inside once more
They aren't worth drudging up.
I pretend I'd rather be alone
That I want him to forget
Just how much he meant to me
Perhaps if I pretend enough it will come true
No longer will I wonder what he's doing
Is he happy?
God I hope so
Something inside has slowly begun to die
Damn these feelings I tried so hard to conceal
These tears that fall...
This pain is real
I pretend I'm tough
Stare at the wall until my teary-eyed vision cleared
Those who look close enough however can see
Just how hard pretending is getting for me
Lord knows I love him
Many times I wish it wasn't so
Truth be told if it were up to me
I wouldn't ever let him go
But its not up to me
So I pretend
Hoping to god one day this pain will end

(((Tator)))

Good poem.