Hey pisano!!!! I love you sweetie!!! how come your not on my facebook

You too :) No worries. Glad you enjoyed it :) Did anyone jump out of the mahoosive cake?

I am truly Blessed to have so many caring friends.
Some, I didn't even realize I had.
Thank You All sooo Much!!

They took my phone away from me the other night when they caught me texting.
My laptop was brought to me this morning.
I am finally allowed to communicate with the outside world.

I am doing well but have a long road to travel.
You dont reailze what you have till its gone and the breathing and respritory therapy are the hardest part. Although it is a little easier this morning since they took out my drain tube. Talking is impossible without deep breaths.

It is difficult to watch the ones who love you go tru this.
It is more difficult to know how to help them, when you dont know how to help yourself.
How, when you know all the odds....
Do you tell someone that you have decided to try something....
unimaginable?
I had 3 choices. Lay down n die. Fight with treatment n die anyway.
Or let them go in and see if there was anything they could do.
God chose to Bless me...the tumor was external and they were able to remove it. They took the bottom 1/3 of my right lung
as well. I knew exactly what my odds of surviving it were. They were no better or worse than the others.
My odds still are not good. But they are soo much better than they were. I have a chance to LIVE!!

To the one I hurt with my decision....I can only say
I had a difficult choice. I made it myself. I made it for....ME!
I did exactly what you encouraged me to do.
"Do what is best for you and let noone influence you"

Why it is sooo hard to understand...I dont know.
I never lied. I did not intentionally decieve.
I just couldnt find it in me to tell you.
For that....I will be forever sorry.

Thank You all again for your Prayers and Kindness.