Sarah~ as long as you believe in yourself you can accomplish anything...

Pretty good chance I have carpal tunnel and I'm a writer... I'm lost... if this gets worse... It's not that I haven't swam deeper oceans to keep going on for shore or took a deep breath while swallowing my pride but i'm lost inside... whether or not I'm being tested by some angelic force? I'm trapped to not know where I truly fit into life's little gaps and I've been snapping on people as of late...

As I lay dying
You open up the doors of flame
When you soar above the stars
You'll never know my name
And if you think to find mr right
Without looking at me further
You'll never find the king you deserve the worst
I wake up everyday it's all the same
Why, do you keep pressuring me to take your hand
Can't you see I'm the one to blame
Can't you see in all this hell
I'm the one and we're all the same
And in the skies there's no escaping
From the times I've played
You're like the only prescription for drug I always need
And if you cannot look at him without looking at me further
You'll never find the king you deserve the worst
I wake up everyday it's all the same
Why, do you keep pressuring me to take your hand
Can't you see I'm the one to blame
Can't you see in all this hell I'm the one and we're all the same
And you're doing this to me
You're doing this to me
And I can't let you go
Can't let you go....

That and making alcohol so the Irish and Scottish Don't take over the world ;P

Now I would say that's a result of all these handy dandy baskets of feeligns and dates aside are about... to just do it? you got fifty bucks? Cause I've had letters from a few off here promising me first night's free ;)… most girls don't want to be used that way... instead of asking for trouble why not look for them? that is a option on their profile if they're in your neightborhood and looking for no strings attached... to go to that length of using the entire country for a physical relationship... you're more involved than you think so, sir...

In all honesty if this high being of light were to force me to bow and serve him why'd he give me free will in the first place? Why do humans view themselves as nothing when you die and you are dead and you learn that mankind is to walk side by side with the God as equals not as servants you will know your true destiny... Mankind has beat many Gods in life with only the power of their hearts... you want to be born to damnation of a cruel god go ahead I think God loves us as does Odin or anybody else's religion... millions of Gods... walking the earth for all we know spying on us reporting back in to the Heavens...

Mankind wrote the bible... you have people who heard the callings of the Angels and wrote down the messages.. the entire book of Revelations... was written by an insane exiled monk on an island... if you are to understand religion you have to understand mental illnesses and opening up that channel in your mind to a gateway to the Heavens... They're not delusional people if you ask them their opinion or listen to the words of Plato talking about how mankind didn't view madness but as a gift from the Heavens... where as sober sense is only human... The Ten commandments when Moses came down from the mountains the first thing he does is go Berserk on the golden calf... Jesus himself was hated upon by mankind had very few friends in life that all bailed on him when it went down... where as you have that certain party in WW2 who had the Axis powers fight and die to exterminate all life on Earth... Had "god" not woken up America bombing Pearl Harbor at the right timing, if the Japanese just waited a few weeks to wake the dog if not none of us would be here, today...

Thanks :)

I'm not looking to change... not my beliefs not my goals not my focus I tend to live my life no matter how much she begs met to be a better man, because no matter how I feel about her if I do it for her and not myself... she's going to leave me anyway. And I will be a new person not knowing who I am... done that and was lost. What I hope for is gradual growth that this person keeps me alive and focused on my goals and ambitions love can happen at any moment but mostly when you accept your own faults just because it was time you accept yourself that you're not perfect and you can only be you cause no matter what someone tells you you're going todo it anyway

Hello, new to the site been making my way around the forums regardless I am seeking the deepest sense of the word love... someone that accepts me for my faults someone that admires my strength someone who knows how to make me smile when down and someone who can make me believe I can do anything if not everything I want to do in life. I'm not looking for some munny bunny or someone to take care of me I am seeking this other half of myself... this twin flame so to speak... I am an author of a couple books I keep writing I never stop believing in myself and I value beauty but I'm not looking for fake unrealistic playboy bunny material either :P... she can be anything she wants to be because even as a man her life is her own I can only hope to share our dream we have built together...

Find people of common interests... whatever your passion is and explore the world with them... you don't have to meet face to face you just have to engage in this world and being out in public is ideal but it isn't all that... people are living life and are doing cause no matter what you're doing in life. You can read horoscopes or visit seers your life is going to happen anyway regardless of what people tell you... I was told this by a man of science who said a seer told him his exact life's story since he was 20 and it played out word for word.. regardless of how he felt at the moment...

You don't have to give in to what keeps you madder and madder if anything I've learned... it's not compassion that makes a person feel better it's warmth... when someone tells you they've been through what you've been through you feel better about yourself that you're not the only one... someone saying they care about you and you still will not? But when someone opens their heart upon you and tells you I've been there I know what it's like to truly stop believing this world cares about me... you know you're not alone in the world... instead of everyone telling you to grow up acting childish themselves...

Sometimes no matter how intelligent I can be as a person... I have to realize I'm not very smart at all... smartness is when someone teaches you, you listen you write down notes to study and develop into your brain learning something... intelligence is the will to figure stuff out on your own... I am highly intelligent and have very little smartness in myself... mankind started off being very intelligent learning to talk when they had no real way of communicating...what these words began to mean and the phrases we know today... cities are built... and we develop new ways to coexist....

Hold on to me like a ghost
My empty child
Sleep a little longer in my dreams
Still, I can see past your soul
And how you wish for something new
Know that my dreams are pure and I part it unto you
When you are empty
And you feel lost and apart
Know the deepest part of yourself
Is following your heart
You can try to rest against a tree so let it be
Know that deep in your soul
Is the will to let it be...
you can move higher fountains
make your dreams all complete
Know who you are within yourself
Is complete and unique
You have tried and fallen empty as quiet as you are
Know that deep inside of your soul you're already a star
And if you keep up with your wishes make them all new
Know the deepest part of yourself is just part of you
You can lay empty and wasted and feel out of control
No matter the dream it's within your soul....

There might be a gender role reversal and the term doctor is someone who knows you inside and out ;) so it might not be as bad but yea....

All I do is fade
And my dreams wash away
All my dreams are broken
And my mountain is not the top
the highest point I have reached is what's inside myself and soul
And all the rest fades away...
When you think you gotta climb higher mountains
And the road is not quite through
Think of a dream away
And I'll wish again for you
See the shining light on the other side
So if I can't wish for something
And this mountain feels icy hot
All I gotta do is try
And that says quite a lot
That I have my scars and have been bitten
And my dreams have not reached the other side
When I dream
I just don't want to fade....

I'm sad lonely and confused about what to do but I cannot give up I won't I refuse to stop doing what my passion is... I have moved big mountains I have climbed higher fences and I have never once turned my back on mankind no matter how many times it has spit upon me...

So, I spoke to the Doc. And he said he's pretty certain I have carpal tunnel... and I'm a writer... I'm a trusting person in mankind but a botched up operation? My horoscope predicted fascinating details about my current life I was in awe how the stars knew these things... and when I looked into my future it told me of the love of my life would enter and be something unwordly… this person never came to be... she wasn't secretly stalking my fb as suggested she didn't pop up with this wonderful news... instead of information that was true that I already knew... all I got is half my heart taken...

Hope
I hope to keep believing
That one day people will be who they want
Be anything they want to be
Freedom gives us choices and voices and no longer are we staring at empty monitors
But exploring each other's hearts
You can argue and bicker amongst your friends and family
But when you consider how all of us is different inside and out
Are we any different at all?
You can be stupid it's not mentality you lack it's your indecision to be so judgmental on people different than yourself
You can be a scientist and still leave the headlights of your vehicle on when you're shopping at Walmart
You can make mistakes and reason within yourself that you still have things to do this morning
You can be brave and filled with fear
You can stop moving you can stop dreaming and you can definitely stop saying hello to who were
Or you can simply agknowledge all of our own fears and weaknesses makes us stronger?

This is from my own book of poetry... The Breaths We Take... it is published so idk how the forum moderators feel about copywrited material that is your own?

The Longest Pause

Where once the heart yearned out for another and was calm to wait in the silence of the day
You find yourself kneeling beside the banister waking up from a morning of longing
Hoping each thought doesn’t crush your dreams of trying again
You’re not a fool
You’re not alone
All of us reach out past the deepest pits of ourselves and find the measure of our human emotions
Typically stretching each breath till you exhaust in a heated emotion of a newly found beat of life
Several times the peace of manhood beats against your heart letting you know you’re alive and your will to succeed is in reach
You yearn for another
Like the Fall’s fog rises and passes over shallower waters where your heart has been buried in your doubts that you’re doomed to walk eternity without another
Smile, you’re not alone and you can never be trodden down by a mere river in the expanse of the ocean of your heart
Your noble soul pouring each breath into your body
At that same moment, your future love breathes the same breath
Heart to heart staring at the moon and you’re too unfocused to truly notice each other except in the measure of waiting
A peaceful night as you truly understand your heart’s measure against the sands of a fading river of doubts that once clouded your mind
You walk hand in hand with the maker
Your own choice of whom you follow your heart to
And love is out there waiting still
Waiting for you to find yourself in the measure of time
So, you can meet each other again forever