thats exactly how i feel wizard bro.

and i tried explaining that to her. but it didnt work.

gn newg.

Singingmyheartout))))))

I'm not trying to make you look like the "bad guy" here.

and i guess ill try and understand what you feel and say.

i dont mean to disrespect that in which way or form.

Newg "Maya is her daughter"

newg you think your crying.


omg i cant even see through these tears of pain that cant seem to stop comming out.!

*sigh*

I respect that.

Just wished you would have told me that at the beggining.

and yes i do care to hear what you have to say.

just dont know why you didnt feel how you feel now and not tell me before we built up all of this that we "had".

i just dont understand it babe. I will always Love You for who you are.

i just posted what i did for advice.

i previously posted the reason why she did what she did on page 1 artgurl.

the lyrics to a song im listening to ^^

heres what i think

She burned me down, down to the ground

Blood - though thicker than water - is harder to clean up
You?ll get it in the end boy if the weapon of choice is love
Expecting it from a stranger or maybe an acquaintance
Never from family or friends though a simple mistake and expense

She burned me down, down to the ground

Pissed and disappointed I prey to learn to forgive
If I can?t find it in my heart then I have no reason to live

Here is an education - the lesson professed is quite cruel
There are some things worse the death and one of them is you

well said wizard,thank you for the positive advice.

I'm not trying to throw a pity party here. but me and her met here.

even had a post of it. so decided to post what had happened.

so dont be making accusation gravy)) if you dont know whats been going on here.

life is pain Gravy)) after what she did.
And i am a F U C K I N man .

ty joyce hun

but what im wondering is why she didnt feel,or think what she did tonight. previously. before we had all these plans,feelings for each other,Love.

I hope so Joyce.

And if or when it happens i hope she sticks to what she want that time around.

*sigh*

she doesnt joke like that she seemed serious .

so i guess i will just float through this life wondering If i will find "the one". hasnt happened,but i hope it will.

we were as one. when we skope on the phone for 6 hours at a time each night. when i would think about her at work and look forward to talking to her when i got home.

we just talked a bit ago on yahoo.

we had plans to even move in together. and we were ok with that . thats what we wanted.we collaberated so nicely. said the same things when we spoke and laughed. Loved each other.
she knew i had 3 kids and unfortunatly i dont get the chance to see them much.she knew that and understood up until tonight. then she just changed her mind of "US" . which i dont understand wth is going on.

The plans we had,The Love we had ( which i still love her)

she was beautiful inside as well as out and now she can make that decision at a snap of a finger.Its ok it is her life,but i feel what she was telling me was a lie.

but i guess life is pain.

No im not.why is she being like that?

I dont know what to think.

(eyes filled with tears)

SingingMyHeartOut)) decided we shouldnt be together.